Thought I'd just put this video up to help me along with my re-discovery process.
But anyways, just find myself constantly reminded that I don't want to be here at all...
And that perhaps much better things await me somewhere else. Maybe something worse awaits me. I don't know for sure, and it's kind of scary. Writing about this now makes my heart beat faster, and not in a good way. The kind of 'I'm feeling so anxious' kind of way...
Looks like we're in for some rain tonight, which is good, because I want that to be my mood now.
I want someone to cry for me, since I am incapable of crying now.
We all need a good cry once in a while don't we?
We all just want someone to catch us in our moment of weakness and be there to comfort us don't we?
To have arms wrapped around you when you're feeling so scared and alone.
To not have them say anything, but communicate what you need with small physical gestures.