Saturday, July 30, 2011

And so there I stood, surrounded by fools.
By those who cannot even begin to know what I am.
A paradox in the flesh, an unsolvable rubiks.
Come and understand me, or at least try our best to.
See that I am, not so different.
I still am only human after all.
But alas, they do not try to.
Perhaps they are afraid to.
And yet they want to hear the other things that make me interesting.
They want to hear the stories and experiences,
But they are all afraid to be there when it happens.
I bring them to places that they don't even know.
I bring them to new heights of pleasure and pain.
But they are mortals, and afraid of what they don't know.
They let me go and venture to these new sensations,
To return to tell them what it's like.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Saying Goodbye?

It's hard to describe the mood that I currently bear.
Is it one of neutrality? Or is it one of apathy?
Have I lost my feelings and become numb to all that I am?

I am dying...
Losing myself to the madness that is reality.
To the demons of realness and cruelty.

They are pulling me away from all that I love.
And have come to acknowledge as my own.
As a part of me...

The next few weeks are not my own.
I will be undertaking one of the tougher parts of my training...
And it is here that I will decide whether I stand or fall.
And when I fall, do I do it lying down?
Or do I go fighting till the end?

Words for mself to ponder and reflect upon...
Well... Time to fly.
Fly to the last vestiges of all that is me...
And we shall see if it is time to say goodbye.

Friday, July 22, 2011

I'm home, but have to return soon... This sucks...
Army is getting tougher and tougher... And I've been given extras because of someone's mistake...
It's not fair, but then life is never fair...

Shan't be updating for a long time... As you guys can already see...