Back from Ikea

Back from Ikea... Again...
Ah well, at least this time it's for keeps.
A little miffed about my room not being done the way I want it.
And also about the fact that my room is too small to accomadate a nice double bed...
Don't my parents know that I like big wide space for my sleep?
And that someday I'm gonna get attached and share my bed as well?
*Sigh* Oh well, I guess having a single bed will mak things cozier between me and my partner-to-be *fg*

Long night...

If you don't show tonight, then it's gonna be a long night...

I wore a scarf to work today.
And my mum just decided to ask why I'm wearing one...
I had no idea how to answer her...
You know what I'm talking about *fg*

I wonder...

I saw an ant, scurrying about.
I wonder what it's thinking of..
"A giant human is staring at me!"
"Gotta find something..."
"-blank-"

I saw a bird flying in the sky.
I wonder what it's thinking of..
"Fly, fly, fly..."
"Where's my nest?"
"-blank-"

I saw humans today.
I wonder what they're thinking of..
"Where should I go now?"
"What should I eat?"
"-blank-"

I saw myself in the mirror.
I wonder what I'm thinking of..
"Who am I?"
"What am I?"
"What's my worth?"

I now have a son, and a wife that I didn't know existed...
The wonders of parenthood...

That aside, today's been a pretty good day.
It feels good to meet up with Cat and Nicky again after a long break...
And today I was late *Gasp! Shock! Disbelief!*
I know... Fucking train's fault, not mine...
And I got myself some dark chocolate and a new pair of shades.
And boy do they look good!

Emotions are fragile things.
Like water, a single touch can send ripples in all directions,
Creating chaos in an otherwise undisturbed pool of water.
But like water, emotions are the pure expression of our humanity.

I trust you more than I've ever trusted anyone else.
I've told you things that only my heart and soul knows.

Please don't let me down.
Please don't let me go.
Please don't kill me.

Pretty much flipping bored now...
Work in a few minutes...
Come home, gym...
Get back, shower...
Dress up, computer...
Team Fortress 2, 1 hour...
Thinking, reading, etc...
Chat online, sleep...

Ooh! Incidentally, I got a new haircut...
Still trying to get used to it...
Styling it is such a pain!!!

The ability of children to think unrealistically, to dream big, and to want the impossible, is one of their most endearing traits.
Because once they grow a little older, skepticism and reality sets in. Their thinking becomes based on reality. Their dreams, small. And they only want what they can get...

Perhaps it's time for me to think unrealistically, dream big, and want the impossible, all over again...

Am I in love?

How do I tell you?
Or do I tell you at all?
What is love?
How do I know I'm in love?

Fragmented memories and fictional reality.

The dam burst and flooded the plain.
Fragmented memories started to spill forth.
Catching glimpses of the present and the past.
The hands of my mind started to play.
Placing each piece where it should be.
A jigsaw puzzle, if you will.
A masterpiece of the night.
A night of sadness and sorrow.
But no tears and no sighs.
The Night has it's hold on me,
As slumber soon reaches my eyes.
The Night allows no rest, no reprieve.
In my dreams it starts to haunt.
The memories are real, the reality isn't.

A fictional reality, an imagined imagination.
Faces that have names, and faces that don't.
Yet subconciously, I know them by name.
Faces of friends, yet strangely not of foes.
And it is the faces of friends that bring me the pain.
A strange twist of fate, where those who aren't supposed to,
End up hurting you more than those who should.
Fragmented memories and fictional reality.
That's the name of the game.
The game of the Night.
My cruel mistress, my beloved saviour.
The day comes and rises from the horizon.
Light feels the sky, and hits me in the eyes.
I open my eyes, relieved, yet upset.
The Night has gone, and the day has begun.
Back to being another one of billions.
Back to being one of the dead.
Though the Night is gone for now,
It's comforting to know, that He'll return again.
Always coming and going, just like people.
Yet more majestic and beautiful than anything I've known.
Fragmented memories and fictional reality.
That's the name of the game.
That's the game of the Night.

Life goes on without me

Life goes on without me.
The cosmos move as they always have.
I'm one of billions. Just like the stars.
But not shining brightly like they are.

I stand in a busy street.
With people passing by.
But yet they will fail to notice,
The man who's at the side.

Life goes on without me.
That will always be true.
I'm one of the billions, the walking dead.
Leave me or save me.

Last night was "Let's-talk-about-painful-memories-and-events-and-relive-the-moment-in-your-mind-all-over-again." With the right company, it can be quite liberating!

Thanks Karu!
Time to go mountain climbing.

Fun!!!

Testing, testing, 1,2,3...
Just trying out my Bamboo's word recognition power.
And...
IT WORKS!!!
Hahaha... Stupid post... Ich weiss...

Saying "Sorry" is never easy...
Saying "I love you" is harder...

The love of the night

When the sun sets, my spirit feels alive.
In the cold dark of the night, I feel energized.
Be it the chilling wind, or the caressing light of the moon,
I love the night, as it embraces me.

In the day I am but one of millions.
Walking, talking, breathing.
In the night, I am one of one.
Thinking, drawing, writing.

The night embraces my true nature,
The thinker, the artist, the poet.
The day accepts my lies.
To be one of millions. One of the dead.

To be in eternal twilight,
Neither night nor day.
The time that dreams are dreamt.
And hopes are all realized.

Well, my bloodtest result was normal.
Which means, I'm alright.
But still that doesn't answer the question of excessive bleeding.
Too bad... I ain't gonna die.

If I were to die soon.
My only request is, let me live.

Pink clouds, blue skies

So, it's been about 3 hours since I was at the dentist...
Well, it's been an experience...
Anyways, here are 2 pics of a drawing I just did.
It's a picture of a dream I had last night...
Sunset/sunrise with blue skies and pink clouds.

Without flash

With flash

When we met, I didn't knew.
But I think I might be falling for you.
Your charm and affection,
It's like an infection.

We just met, so I'm not sure it's true.
But if it is, I'll be waiting just for you.
You hold me in your tight embrace,
Together, we'll set this town ablaze.

Distance and time, are but a number,
But I'll always miss you, as I slumber.
Whenever I am down and feeling blue,
I know that I can always count on you.

I'll understand if it's not what you want to hear,
But I hope that we'll still be friends forever.
I won't cry, and I won't wait,
I'll just attribute it to fate.

Industrial Sunrise.

Taken by Karumi

Tempted.

Tempted to do what I've not done for a while...
I think I'll give in and just do it...

The voice within.
It whispers softly.
In the silence of the night.
That is all I hear.

Obeying the commands,
To seek relief from this world.
Escape to the lies.
And seek comfort within.

Good things in life are worth waiting for a while.
But...
The best things in life are worth waiting forever.