I can boast to many works done out of insecurity,
And credit many conversations to my immaturity.
While I'm misunderstood You are understanding me.
And showing me how grace is enough.

For everything that I've done right, seems like a thousand I've done wrong.
And I keep on losing count of all the times my flesh has won.
And when the light of Christ that's in me is overshadowed by the fall.
You are showing me how grace is enough.

When I feel unworthy,
So undeserving.

Still I can come, just as I am.
For I find Your love, is free of condition.
So I will run, to Your wide open arms,
Where I am accepted,
Where I am forgiven.
Grace is enough for me,
Your grace is enough for me.

I've been quick at passing judgement, when I'm worthy of conviction.
And at times I've measured virtue, only based on my relegion.
But theology it seems, is not the thing that's saving me
And showing me a grace that's enough.


T'would be nice for it to be true in my life.


But no matter how hard I try, I still seem trapped.
Attempts to climb up the sides have been futile.
All I've succeeded in doing is dig a deeper hole.
I'm trapped in the fowler's snare.

A moment's respite is all I ask.
Yet it seems denied to me.
Why should it be?
I don't know why.

If I had not known of God or Jesus, would I go to heaven or hell if I die?

March is coming to an end already. And yet from another perspective, it could be the start of a new journey. Hopefully the gale will cease. The seas calm and be suitable for sailing.

Emerge Elijah!

It's been exactly 20 days since my last post. It is a testament to how boring it is not to study.

Ayron Elijah Sim is a new creature in Christ Jesus. Humbly I submit my life to God. The Saviour of my soul. King of all my days. The grace of God is sufficient for me, all the days of my life. By His goodness and mercy I am still alive today.

The old Ayron has passed away.
Emerge Ayron Elijah Sim, follower of the most high King of heaven.
Lover of God.

Thanks to Cynthia and her mum for their hospitality!

Appeal failed

Things are not moving to plan... I've reconsidered about going to NS if I can't get into a poly, so I'll seek other alternatives now. Looks like I should retake my 'O' Levels again in attempts to get a better score. I'm down right now and alot of things are going through my mind now.

But hey, at least I have permission from my parents to be water baptized.
It's time.

My Father said, "Trust Me."
And so I have...

(4/2/2009)

I'll know the appeal results next monday... From one path, I now have 3.

1)If the appeal fails, hunt down the teacher and personally appeal. (Mom's idea...)

2)Retake my GCE 'O' Levels for maths.

3)Go and serve in NS.

Whichever is not in Thy will, I pray thee to shut the door.

Happy CNY

A great CNY already! While I've already collected my Ang Baos and tabulated the amount, I'm not going to share how much I got, cause I believe that there'll be more. HAHA!

A really fantastic time spent with my family yesterday, although frankly, some of my relatives I don't even know... But anywho, it's great to see my cousins again, both of whom are serving their NS now.

I love both of my Grandmas so much! My paternal Grandma is so loving towards us, always cooking a feast for us whenever we come over. Whereas my maternal Grandma is so hip, she dyes her hair, and flows with the younger generation.

It was a very long but satisfying day for me. But not complete.

(20/1/2009)

I've done things that I'm not proud of, even regret doing. Sometimes I just wish that I could re-live that moment, so that I can take the other path. Alas, it's not to be so.

But one thing I am proud of, no matter what, is being a Christian. For sure, sometimes I wonder why I even bacame a Christian. Looking back, life was perfect already. All this trials and tribulations, certainly I don't look forward to them. But if that's the moulding process I'll take it as it comes, for I know that in the end I'll be a precious, perfect creation in God's eyes.

Certainly a God who gave His only Son for us is forgiving, merciful and loving. I don't care what anyone says, that's what I believe. Speaking of belief, I'm a rather scientific person. What I can see, hear, taste, touch and feel, would without a doubt be real. But when it comes to my God, I don't know why, but I forget about all that and just surrender to Him, believing that though I can't see Him, He is always there. I have faith that my God is forever, there is no begining and no end to His glorious majesty.

And one day I'll be there with Him, standing in awe of His greatness. It shan't be soon, it'll be a long time, at least in mortal terms. To a God that's been there for eternity, what's a 100 years?

So I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned, in awe of the One who gave it all.

(19/1/2009)

I dreamt that I prophesied to... Kino?! God, that's weird... I told her that she'll unite her people under one banner, and God will smite those who stand in her way... Now, if I dreamt that I told that to someone, a human, wow! What a dream it'll make!

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift.
That's why it's called the Present.

Today is a gift from God, it is the day that He has made, I am glad and am rejoicing in it.
For what can seperate me from my God? Certainly not powers or principalities. Neither life nor death, angels nor demons. Not even the pass! For the old things have been swept away, and all things made new!

He is my Jehovah Shalom, my Peace when I am restless.
He is my Jehovah Rapha, my Healer when I am sick
He is my Jehovah Shammah, my God who's with me always.
He is Jehovah Jireh, my God who always provides for me.
He is Jehovah Nissi, my Encourager who pushes me on.
And He is Jehovah Rohi, my Shepherd who protects, guides and loves me.

Joy of the Lord!

I got back my results already!!!
Truly, if I do my best, God will do the rest.

GCE 'O' Level results

English - A1
Combined Sciences (Chem/Phy) - A2
Food and Nutrition - B4
Combined Humanities (Hist/SS) -B4
E Maths - C6... *sigh*

B Chinese - Merit (Whoo Hoo!!! I got Merit for chinese!!!)

Total L1R4 - 17 points

Truly God is good all the time!

I pray heavenly Father, keep me, and help me in my future endavours, knowing that all good things come from Thee. Let my path be ordained by You Lord, trusting in You always! All glory be to God in heaven! Amen!

(12/1/2009)

I'm going to get my 'O' Level results today, not really excited about it, whatever results I get will be equivalent to the amount of hardwork I've put in last year. Still I'm ready to face it.

No matter what comes my way I'll keep my joy, that's my prayer and my vision for 2009. To keep my joy no matter what comes my way.

To all the good things in life, cheers!

(10/1/2009)

I'm begining to believe what they say about dreams... Y'know, they say that whatever you dream of will be the opposite in reality. The way things have been going, I'm begining to believe that saying.

I wonder whether Jesus was serious when He mentioned about cutting off your right hand and gougin out your eye if it causes you to sin... A little drastic don't ya think? And yet it makes sense...

So, 'O' Level results in 2 more days... I'm not anxious or anything, unlike some of my friends. Whatever happens is up to me. Should I fail my 'O' Levels, I ain't gonna retake it. I do not believe in letting that piece of paper determine my future. If I do really well for my 'O' Levels, well, I'll be glad. But what's the point really?

I'm such a hypocrite, saying one thing, but doing another. It's sickening...
I really feel like backsliding...