I painted this!

I painted this!
I'm so proud!

Jealousy runs through my veins.
Boils my blood.
Heats my body.
Dulls my senses.

Because I know I'll never be good enough...

Still we never know till we try.
And if I do make it... Can I stand it?

Not what I expected...

Most fans of Tokio Hotel would know that they've kicked off they're new Humanoid Tour.
Most fans by now would have watched snippets of some of their shows.

I, being a fan of Tokio Hotel, have obviously known about it and seen the snippets.
People who know me will see me coming to the defence of Tokio Hotel, with near fanatical zeal, whenever there are people who talk bad about them, either as indivuals or as a band.

While we all still love Tokio Hotel, I've got to say that the new tour isn't what I expected it to be...
The songs are great, no doubt about it, but the stage set up and Bill's vocals were not as great as I hoped it to be.

One of the redeeming factors would be his costume. I think it's a wonderful costume, that goes well witht he theme of the tour. However, it's a little too heavy. I think a better substitute would be a leather jacket with LED lights studding the outfit or little light sticks sewn into the hem of the jacket, or a combination of both. That way the costume would bring about the theme needed for the show, but not seem too heavy.

But what do I know eh? I'm just a lover of Tokio Hotel. Nothing more =)

The perfect moment

Today doesn't feel right...

I just wanna curl up into a little ball under my blanket and hide away...
With the sound of the rain pummeling my window.
To see the occasional flash of lightning,
And hear the occasional rumble of thunder.

The darkness enveloping my room, the only light is from my laptop.
Slow music playing in the background as I ponder about some stuff.
To feel alone. So alone in this big wide world...
To feel the coldness of metal upon warm flesh.

To drip rubies and bask in the warmth of it.
To see crimson and be excited.
To taste wine and lust for more of it.
To smell sweet sweet roses and crave for more.

The perfect moment in time.
When all stands still.
The clocks no longer tick.
The day does not progress.

Just got back from the gym, and gonna hit the shower now.

Updated list of stuff I wanna have
- A diary (Yes, I think it's time I had one. It's never too late to start.)
- A job (Please call me back Hush Puppies)
- A Special Someone. (Gender doesn't matter.)
- Bandages (I'm outta bandages!)
- Cotton Swabs (Need those. Extremely essential)
- Betadine (Running low. Need to stock up)
- Help me fill up this list.

Bill: The eptiome of hotness!

Behold! The awesomeness of Bill Kaulitz, even without makeup!

Spazz Attack!

OMG...
OMG...
OMG...

Spazz Attack!
OMG...
OMG...
OMG...

I'm spazzing so bad now...

Updated list.

Updated list of stuff I wanna have
- A diary (Yes, I think it's time I had one. It's never too late to start.
- A job (Please call me back Hush Puppies)
- A Special Someone. (Gender doesn't matter.)
- Bandages (I'm outta bandages!)
- Cotton Swabs (Need those. Extremely essential)
- Betadine (Running low. Need to stock up)
- Help me fill up this list.
 
You'll notice that the new items on my list are first aid items.
I take first aid very seriously...

I want my damn muffins!!!

It made me smile.

*Sniff Sniff Sniffles...* Damn tears won't flow...

I'm trying to sleep, yet I can't...
I feel like crying but I can't.
The tears just won't flow.

You know how it's like, sometimes you go to bed fine,
But the next day you wake up feeling like crap.
You feel the weight of the world just crashing down on you.
You feel the burden of everyone on this planet.

The good thing is, some people can just cry it all out.
Some can't...



*Sigh*
Anyways, a list of stuff that I wanna get for myself...

List of stuff I wanna have.
- A diary (Yes, I think it's time I had one. It's never too late to start.)
- A job (Please call me back Hush Puppies)
- A Special Someone. (Gender doesn't matter.)
- Someone please help me fill up this list.

I wanna run far away from here.
Far from it all...

Take me to the place beyond the stars.
Beyond the sun and the moon.

I wanna be free.
Free from the chains.

I wanna swim in the vast expanse of the universe.
Bask in the coldness of it all.

I've had it.
Help me.

The results are from a quiz I just took on Facebook.
My dear friends, please tell me whethe you thnk it's accurate.
Much loves!

P.S: Nicky! I miss ya!


Dear Ayron Elijah Sim, below are your Personality Tests result:


Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Your view on yourself:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are down-to-earth

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : People like you because you are so straightforward

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person

The seriousness of your love:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So you will find yourself with plenty of dates

Your views on education:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can

The right job for you:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You need to choose something

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Go for it to be happy

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Achieve success

How do you view success:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous

What are you most afraid of:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of things that you cannot control

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel

So, today I went to church.
Had a pretty good time.
Met some one.
Cute...
Still, unfotunately for me...
Anywho, got 2 interviews tomorrow.
Hopefully I'll get the job.

Tomorrow, gonna play LAN with my bro, girlfriend, and my friends

Well, suprise, suprise.
In an interesting turn of events, I will be going to church today.
For reasons I do not yet understand.
But it'll be an opportunity for me to... Well it's best that I don't say it here.
For me to learn to shut up, it's pretty near darn impossible.
I trust too easily, and speak what I should not to liberally.
Hmm...

In anycase, I apologize to Lion/Rabbit for not being online after 2.30pm...
Feels like we haven't really been talking as often lately. Dunno what you think.
Tut mir leid.

Dienstag und Midwoch.

I haven't been updating my blog as often, I know.
So I'll stop procrastinating and start blogging now.

Tuesday
Went job hunting with my bro and his girlfriend.
Went to several outlets, and I lined up an interview with Ambush for wednesday
Then decided to watch the 9.35pm show of Percy Jackson: The lightning thief.
In the meantime, met up with my bro's friend, Jeremy.
Then went over to the SAFRA club to engage in a little gaming.
It's been 5 years since I last stepped into an internet cafe.
Then went back to JP to catch the show. reached home around 12am.

Wednesday
Woke up, played my new comp game which I bought.
Played till 1pm, then got ready for my job interview.
Went down to JP for my interview, left the place at 3pm.
Came home, went to the gym.
Shyang Zhi came over.
Entertaining him, and myself.
Now blogging...

A typical day of my life.

New post on my H+ blog to be up by tomorrow evening.

Thought I'd just update about that, since I've got nothing really interesting to talk about.
Except that tonight is the reunion dinner, and tomorrow is CNY.

Time to collect. Haha!

Das Grüne Auge Ungeheuer

A person I once was friends with was apparently scouted by 2 modeling agencies...
And I dunno what to say...

I suppose, with this being my blog, I should be frank with myself.
On the one hand I feel happy for him.
On the other I feel jealous...

I want to be a model as well, but my dad has other plans for me.
I'll stick with what my dad says, and I'll hang onto his words.
He promised me things that no one else can, and for that I'm grateful.
*Sigh*
...
...
...

Well, you know who you are, if by some astronomical chance that you are reading this.
I wish you all the best.
...
...
...
Random thought of the day: I need to clean and spruce up my laptop...
and so that I won't end this post feeling a little down...
Here's some delicious pics of Tom and Bill!

*Sigh* When will they stop smoking? Oh well... I still love'em anyways...

Heading off to the gym...

So now, after a talk with my dad, it's been set in stone...

I am to get a job by the 22nd of Feb... Or work at MacDonald's till I get enlisted.
And I am to work a minumum of 1 month at any job.

Then we'll see how it goes from there...

It's gonna be a long week... Seeing as almost the entire TH gang will be on interim... *sigh*
Oh well, at least Sarcastic Irony is gonna be in S'pore. But with her JC education started already, I think it'll still be pretty boring.

I'll do my best to get somethings accomplished while they're gone. Maybe create a nice house or two in the Sims. Or maybe do some reading and drawing.

I just wanna accomplish something!

Prada Fall/Winter 2010 Fashion Show.

The Prada Fall/Winter 2010 Fashion Show was exceedingly well done.

The clothes that Prada has come up with were fantastic!
The venue was, in my opinion, unusual.
The music selection was well thought out.
And the runway is something else.

I would love to be one of the viewers.
Being able to watch Prada's fashion show,
And being able to purchas them later.
Wonderful. That's how I would like to spend one of my lazy afternoons.

But that'll mean I'll need lots of money.
And so I'm gonna have to work smart.
But enough of my plans for how I wanna earn lotsa cash.
Here's the Prada Fall/Winter 2010 Fashion Show.
Enjoy!

Ich bin der Teufel

Hmm... I know I just blogged yesterday, but... It feels like I've not blog for a long time. Haha!

I've been called inhuman
I've been called demon possesed.
Simply for me stating my opinions.
You're no longer a friend of mine.
Hell, you never were!
So go crawl back under the rock you came from.

I've said it before, but I'll say it once again.
I hate people who assume to know what I think.
Assume to comprehend what I understand.
Presume to feel what I feel.

You.

Ugh... Was it a dream or a nightmare?
I dunno what it was...
To dream of you again.
What're you trying to do?

You screwed me up bad.
And left me hanging from a thread.
I thought of you constantly.
Till finally I gave up completely.

But still I ocassionaly think about you.
About us.
About the times we've spent as friends.
Nothing more...

I spoke
You remained silent.
I tried.
You rejected.

I miss the times when we could talk
Have lunch together.
Play games together.
Have sleepovers.

Those things have now passed.
You'v moved on and so have I.
But still I dunno why.
I still think of you.

Seems like I still gotta go to school till the form is signed.
Thanks to those who wished me all the best!

Note that Tom seems like he's not wearing a top. I knew there was something more than just botherly love between the twins! (Hate me or love me for this!)

Gonna shower and head down to school now.
Mein letzte tag in schule, fuer 2010.

Here's a music video by John Scatman.
Enjoy!