So, I'm now back at home, typing away on my dilapidated laptop...
All I want for X'mas is a brand new one. Sadly, that didn't come true.
I'm on my bed, resting my sprained knees (No thanks to the army), and just sitting here thinking of what to do for the day. Perhaps I should pamper myself a little, spend $70 for a full body massage. Or perhaps rock out to ToHo tunes. Maybe get some gymming done. No lower limb activities though. That would be a real killer on my knees... But all in all, the day is gonna be a real lazy one. And I do believe that any off day that I get away from the Hotel, would be a lazy one.
Geist und Mensch,
Lass uns schlafen.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
And I have no more days left.
Only a couple of hours.
Haircut today, and get me an alarm clock.
Time to burn off the fats and tone up this body.
This boy gonna be so pretty when he get out. With the exception of the short hair...
Pff... Oh well, it'll grow.
Looking forward to the pain and the gain.
And the solitude at night, though surrounded by others.
I shall escape, as I always have.
To the place where skies are red and stars are black.
And we'll meet each other in the place where there is eternal dark.
Only a couple of hours.
Haircut today, and get me an alarm clock.
Time to burn off the fats and tone up this body.
This boy gonna be so pretty when he get out. With the exception of the short hair...
Pff... Oh well, it'll grow.
Looking forward to the pain and the gain.
And the solitude at night, though surrounded by others.
I shall escape, as I always have.
To the place where skies are red and stars are black.
And we'll meet each other in the place where there is eternal dark.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Biological Clock
In about an hour, I'll have only 3 days left...
Time to adjust my biological clock. So I'm going to bed now.
Good night world.
Let us close our eyes, and let the dreaming commence.
Time to adjust my biological clock. So I'm going to bed now.
Good night world.
Let us close our eyes, and let the dreaming commence.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
5 days left...
It rains, and rains, and rains.
I like to think that the sky cries for me.
For me alone. For the little scared boy within.
For all his charisma and charm, he's still a little boy.
A boy who doesn't want to grow up.
Who wants to be free from worries and sorrows.
5 days left...
Time to make preps to say Auf Wiedersehen to my Social life...
It rains, and rains, and rains.
I like to think that the sky cries for me.
For me alone. For the little scared boy within.
For all his charisma and charm, he's still a little boy.
A boy who doesn't want to grow up.
Who wants to be free from worries and sorrows.
5 days left...
Time to make preps to say Auf Wiedersehen to my Social life...
Friday, December 3, 2010
Oh my Billa!!!
Oh my Billa! There's gonna be a video for Maedchen Aus Dem All!!!
Gaaaahhhhh!!! *Squeal* *Giggle* *Scream*
Okay, cool, calm, collected...
Oh, 6 days left...
Fendi sale later, Bar tonight, 'Meet the Fokkers' tomorrow.
Social death in 6 days. XD
Love is a game, for everyone.
But this is you and me...
We had a thousand lives in one,
We had Hurricanes and Suns.
Hey! Don't you know,
We've just begun!
Gaaaahhhhh!!! *Squeal* *Giggle* *Scream*
Okay, cool, calm, collected...
Oh, 6 days left...
Fendi sale later, Bar tonight, 'Meet the Fokkers' tomorrow.
Social death in 6 days. XD
Love is a game, for everyone.
But this is you and me...
We had a thousand lives in one,
We had Hurricanes and Suns.
Hey! Don't you know,
We've just begun!
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Hurricanes and Suns!!!
Loving every little bit of Hurricanes and Suns! The new song by Tokio Hotel!!!
Joy and Sorrow.
What is good and evil?
What is right and wrong?
Merely concepts of morality that keep us in check.
Death will come regardless of how good or evil you are.
Contradicting that I hold animal's lives as dear. Yet treat human life with such contempt.
Perhaps it's the fact that we understand.
Well, enough with the emoing.
I'm glad I spent quality time with my family, and I got to see my dad smile at me.
I know that he's not proud of me still, and that he holds my brother in higher regard.
I just wish that pride wasn't an issue...
Well, enough ranting...
I haven't used my blog to tell about my day as of late, so I shall just dedicate a little section to it.
My day started late, at around 10am, with me heading to work and doing what is neccessary.
Got treated to lunch by my aunt, since I'm leaving the company for NS soon. And she got me an NS man's handy for X'mas ^^ Joy!!!
She even bothers to gift wrap it, so I appreciate it alot.
And the day ends with me chatting with my family and blogging right now.
I wish I could be there with you right now. To share my joy and my sorrows.
You probably know it, cause I know it. That 'like' is something I've gone beyond with you.
When the day comes and I tell you how I feel. I hope you'd accept me. Though if you reject me, I'll understand.
But we'll be friends for as long as possible ne?
Well, ladies and germs. 7 days and a couple of hours left.
What is right and wrong?
Merely concepts of morality that keep us in check.
Death will come regardless of how good or evil you are.
Contradicting that I hold animal's lives as dear. Yet treat human life with such contempt.
Perhaps it's the fact that we understand.
Well, enough with the emoing.
I'm glad I spent quality time with my family, and I got to see my dad smile at me.
I know that he's not proud of me still, and that he holds my brother in higher regard.
I just wish that pride wasn't an issue...
Well, enough ranting...
I haven't used my blog to tell about my day as of late, so I shall just dedicate a little section to it.
My day started late, at around 10am, with me heading to work and doing what is neccessary.
Got treated to lunch by my aunt, since I'm leaving the company for NS soon. And she got me an NS man's handy for X'mas ^^ Joy!!!
She even bothers to gift wrap it, so I appreciate it alot.
And the day ends with me chatting with my family and blogging right now.
I wish I could be there with you right now. To share my joy and my sorrows.
You probably know it, cause I know it. That 'like' is something I've gone beyond with you.
When the day comes and I tell you how I feel. I hope you'd accept me. Though if you reject me, I'll understand.
But we'll be friends for as long as possible ne?
Well, ladies and germs. 7 days and a couple of hours left.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
*Sniffles sobs*
I've got no inspiration for my Literary Diary...
My poor poor Literary Diary... Nothing for me to fill it with as of late.
No ink on cream paper...
My dear, I will come to you soon. Once my mind is filled with dreams and visions.
Haunting nightmares and crazy realities.
I've got no inspiration for my Literary Diary...
My poor poor Literary Diary... Nothing for me to fill it with as of late.
No ink on cream paper...
My dear, I will come to you soon. Once my mind is filled with dreams and visions.
Haunting nightmares and crazy realities.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
13 days left...
I'm pulled and torn.
Lead me down the last mile.
To the place of never ending light.
Okay, little emo period over.
Loving Tokio Hotel all over again... *Sigh*
Went shopping on Wednesday with mum.
Bought some new stuff. Haha! Bill!!! You're turning me into you! XD
No, no, no. I still have my own style. So don't worry.
I'm pulled and torn.
Lead me down the last mile.
To the place of never ending light.
Okay, little emo period over.
Loving Tokio Hotel all over again... *Sigh*
Went shopping on Wednesday with mum.
Bought some new stuff. Haha! Bill!!! You're turning me into you! XD
No, no, no. I still have my own style. So don't worry.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Goodness, I had a looonnnnggggg rant on both twitter and FB...
I'll post it up here when I get back from work...
But on a more serious note...
I have noticed the extreme frailty of the human body, the human mind and the human psyche.
I have noticed that we are easily disturbed, as a puddle of water.
A single drop of water into that puddle causes ripples.
And so, just like that puddle of water, so are we.
I am noticing that we are more frail than before.
I do not want to die. I want to live.
And still, the dreams of immortality and eternal youth seem so near, yet so far.
I've had thoughts of living forever, in my mind. I've had thoughts of utopia.
But it is not possible.
Frail humans... So weak, and so naive...
If there is a higher power, it does not care... And it's planning is as flawed as it is ludicrous.
If there are aliens. I beg them to come and take us away. Evolve us.
If there is nothing. Then I beg Death to take us all in this instant.
Human kind is ultimately doomed if we do not do something.
And it won't be mother nature that kills us. It will be Human Nature.
I'll post it up here when I get back from work...
But on a more serious note...
I have noticed the extreme frailty of the human body, the human mind and the human psyche.
I have noticed that we are easily disturbed, as a puddle of water.
A single drop of water into that puddle causes ripples.
And so, just like that puddle of water, so are we.
I am noticing that we are more frail than before.
I do not want to die. I want to live.
And still, the dreams of immortality and eternal youth seem so near, yet so far.
I've had thoughts of living forever, in my mind. I've had thoughts of utopia.
But it is not possible.
Frail humans... So weak, and so naive...
If there is a higher power, it does not care... And it's planning is as flawed as it is ludicrous.
If there are aliens. I beg them to come and take us away. Evolve us.
If there is nothing. Then I beg Death to take us all in this instant.
Human kind is ultimately doomed if we do not do something.
And it won't be mother nature that kills us. It will be Human Nature.
15 days left...
Still a little sick, but I think I'm on the mend.
Returning to work after 4 days of rest.
In other news...
N. Korea shells S. Korean military base.
The South is angered. As is the rest of the 'civilized' world.
My view is that the South has every right to conduct military drills within their own territory.
But when they chose to conduct it near the N. Korean border, they should expect some form of military response, as they should very well know after several decades of minor skirmishes, arising because of such a situation.
I'm not condoning the North's response at all, for those who might misinterprt my views.
I'm merely stating that both sides were to blame. The North, as usual responded to the military exercise by flexing their own military muscle. Certainly there are other ways to resolve the matter, but I think, considering that Kim Jong Un, is the next in line, and that he has been slowly gaining power within the N. Korea government, the attack was likely condoned by both Kim Jong Il and Kim Jong Un, as a sign to the North Koreans that the new leader is a man of action, not words.
Still, I don't know for certain. It's just my appallingly terrible analysis of the situation.
Nach arbeit, nach arbeit...
Still a little sick, but I think I'm on the mend.
Returning to work after 4 days of rest.
In other news...
N. Korea shells S. Korean military base.
The South is angered. As is the rest of the 'civilized' world.
My view is that the South has every right to conduct military drills within their own territory.
But when they chose to conduct it near the N. Korean border, they should expect some form of military response, as they should very well know after several decades of minor skirmishes, arising because of such a situation.
I'm not condoning the North's response at all, for those who might misinterprt my views.
I'm merely stating that both sides were to blame. The North, as usual responded to the military exercise by flexing their own military muscle. Certainly there are other ways to resolve the matter, but I think, considering that Kim Jong Un, is the next in line, and that he has been slowly gaining power within the N. Korea government, the attack was likely condoned by both Kim Jong Il and Kim Jong Un, as a sign to the North Koreans that the new leader is a man of action, not words.
Still, I don't know for certain. It's just my appallingly terrible analysis of the situation.
Nach arbeit, nach arbeit...
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
What am I to do?
Can I do what I want to without setbacks?
Sadly, no...
Depressed by the fact that I only have 17 days left before I am off to the army.
To lead regimented life.
To be just another face.
To be one of the dead.
But something glimmers on the horizon.
A lighthouse perhaps.
Or something else?
We shall see...
Can I do what I want to without setbacks?
Sadly, no...
Depressed by the fact that I only have 17 days left before I am off to the army.
To lead regimented life.
To be just another face.
To be one of the dead.
But something glimmers on the horizon.
A lighthouse perhaps.
Or something else?
We shall see...
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
A little too late.
Ahh... How nice it would be if we had something like Germany's Gymnasium in Singapore.
They have much more focused studies at a younger age, while we only start at a teriary level.
And they study classical antiquites as well! Latin, Greek, Hebrew. And so many languages as well!
A Gymnasium is quite stressful and tough though. But I still wanna give it a go.
A little too late, I would think. But still...
Ah, in any case, it would be too late for me. I'm already 18.
But if I could, I would like to have a go at a Gymnasium =D
They have much more focused studies at a younger age, while we only start at a teriary level.
And they study classical antiquites as well! Latin, Greek, Hebrew. And so many languages as well!
A Gymnasium is quite stressful and tough though. But I still wanna give it a go.
A little too late, I would think. But still...
Ah, in any case, it would be too late for me. I'm already 18.
But if I could, I would like to have a go at a Gymnasium =D
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
Salt mine to salt mine
*Sigh* 3 weeks will go by really fast.
And I will leave this salt mine. Only to be transferred to another...
The only question is... Will the next one be better than the previous one?
Ah, we'll see, we'll see...
In about a month or so, we'll see if Ayron survives at all.
*Sigh* Life is cruel...
But still, looking at the glass half full will help me get through it.
I don't have to be the best soldier.
And I don't have to meet everyone's expectations.
So here's something for you, my commander's to be.
I'll do what you ask me to, as is my obligation.
And I'll say what you want me to, as is my obligation.
But I'm my own man, and don't expect anything else out of me.
I'll serve my nation with pride. But no more than that.
Call me a 'on the fence' citizen. But I know where else my true skills lie.
It most definitely won't be in the army.
And I will leave this salt mine. Only to be transferred to another...
The only question is... Will the next one be better than the previous one?
Ah, we'll see, we'll see...
In about a month or so, we'll see if Ayron survives at all.
*Sigh* Life is cruel...
But still, looking at the glass half full will help me get through it.
I don't have to be the best soldier.
And I don't have to meet everyone's expectations.
So here's something for you, my commander's to be.
I'll do what you ask me to, as is my obligation.
And I'll say what you want me to, as is my obligation.
But I'm my own man, and don't expect anything else out of me.
I'll serve my nation with pride. But no more than that.
Call me a 'on the fence' citizen. But I know where else my true skills lie.
It most definitely won't be in the army.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Skating on thin ice.
Phew... So I didn't make a mistake.
So far as I can tell. But that was really dangerous.
I was practically skating on thin ice...
But now, all is well.
So far as I can tell. But that was really dangerous.
I was practically skating on thin ice...
But now, all is well.
Mistake?
I think I made a wrong move...
One with really bad consequences for me... I dunno. I'll find out soon enough.
Somebody kill me if I did. Otherwise I'd do it myself...
One with really bad consequences for me... I dunno. I'll find out soon enough.
Somebody kill me if I did. Otherwise I'd do it myself...
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Alone
Why do I feel so alone?
Surrounded by people that I know, and people that I don't. And still I feel alone.
I do not seek their company though, which is strange. I want to drown in my own contempt and my loneliness.
Just forget about me and move on. And the world won't know that I ever existed. That there ever was a boy.
*Sigh* I don't know what it is that drives me anymore. Alone... I am completely, and absolutely alone.
Surrounded by people that I know, and people that I don't. And still I feel alone.
I do not seek their company though, which is strange. I want to drown in my own contempt and my loneliness.
Just forget about me and move on. And the world won't know that I ever existed. That there ever was a boy.
*Sigh* I don't know what it is that drives me anymore. Alone... I am completely, and absolutely alone.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
A whole bottle of wine.
I dreamt of a cocktail.
And I still remember the recipe.
Will go shopping tomorrow for the ingredients.
Who knows what this concoction will be?
Oh, went to get my spectacles made as well.
Shock! Yes, I know... I wear specs people. Control yourselves!
Uhm, just finished a whole bottle of wine. Yeap! Guilty as charged.
Replied a really long email. And I mean really long. I mean, who spends 3 hours replying a single email?!
Oh yeah, me! That's who!
Got a really great idea for Xmas gifts!
Gonna shop for them tomorrow!
Wrote a new 'dark' poem!
Yes, I have a dark side to my literary skills besides all the fluffy little poems.
Did a new drawing to complement the poem!
Discussed religion and politics and literature with some friends!
I forgot all about NaNoWriMo, thanks to my enlistment letter!
Gonna serve the army soon. Crap... Every cloud has a silver lining. Whoever said that better be right!
Am I insane? Yes! According to a Facebook quiz...
Note to all my lovely readers: This blog post was not brought on due to the fact that I finished a whole bottle of wine *hic*
And I still remember the recipe.
Will go shopping tomorrow for the ingredients.
Who knows what this concoction will be?
Oh, went to get my spectacles made as well.
Shock! Yes, I know... I wear specs people. Control yourselves!
Uhm, just finished a whole bottle of wine. Yeap! Guilty as charged.
Replied a really long email. And I mean really long. I mean, who spends 3 hours replying a single email?!
Oh yeah, me! That's who!
Got a really great idea for Xmas gifts!
Gonna shop for them tomorrow!
Wrote a new 'dark' poem!
Yes, I have a dark side to my literary skills besides all the fluffy little poems.
Did a new drawing to complement the poem!
Discussed religion and politics and literature with some friends!
I forgot all about NaNoWriMo, thanks to my enlistment letter!
Gonna serve the army soon. Crap... Every cloud has a silver lining. Whoever said that better be right!
Am I insane? Yes! According to a Facebook quiz...
Note to all my lovely readers: This blog post was not brought on due to the fact that I finished a whole bottle of wine *hic*
Just a boy
I feel like the boy who sits in the corner till called.
The silent, ever serving butler.
The one who is at your beck and call.
And fades away the moment his duties are done.
I'm the second son.
Place priority on the first.
I'm the boy who's there when you call.
Gone when not needed.
And that's what I am. A boy. A son when needed. Otherwise, just a boy.
The silent, ever serving butler.
The one who is at your beck and call.
And fades away the moment his duties are done.
I'm the second son.
Place priority on the first.
I'm the boy who's there when you call.
Gone when not needed.
And that's what I am. A boy. A son when needed. Otherwise, just a boy.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Friday, November 5, 2010
So, I completely forgot about NaNoWriMo... Hence I shan't be taking part in it.
Among other news... Grandpa's dinner was alright.
Finally wore my blazer that I bought since a few months back. Been quite hard to find the right time to wear it.
Anywho, people say that I look like Bill Kaulitz Xp
Which is one of the highest compliments that anyone can give me.
Cousin stayed over to chill. Nw we're both awake, and I still gotta go to work...
Ugh...
Don't ever forget me, Okay? :'(
Among other news... Grandpa's dinner was alright.
Finally wore my blazer that I bought since a few months back. Been quite hard to find the right time to wear it.
Anywho, people say that I look like Bill Kaulitz Xp
Which is one of the highest compliments that anyone can give me.
Cousin stayed over to chill. Nw we're both awake, and I still gotta go to work...
Ugh...
Don't ever forget me, Okay? :'(
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Primal. Raw. Unbridled Beauty
Primal. Raw. Unbridled Beauty.
That's what it is, the nakedness of the human body. Beautiful to behold. Unique in every way.
Unfortunately nakedness would not be looked upon as beautiful. At least ever since pornography came in.
Ever since then, the value of naked beauty has been declining. So much so that it's hard for one to see a naked body and not get sexually aroused. Filled with lusts of the flesh. Polluted with thoughts of doing the naked one and be done with it. Such things are terrible.
One must look upon the act of sex as an art form. To see two bodies entwined together, connected at the hip and/or the lips. A symbolic bond of possesive ownership. A bond that one shares with only one other, or with several others. Though it is my personal belief that such a powerful thing should be shared with your one and only. Also one must take time to savour the beauty of one's partner. Never having sex for the sake of having it, or giving in to lust. To take the time to feel every part of one's partner, to just look, admire, and be captivated by his/her beauty is the highest silent compliment one can give...
That's what it is, the nakedness of the human body. Beautiful to behold. Unique in every way.
Unfortunately nakedness would not be looked upon as beautiful. At least ever since pornography came in.
Ever since then, the value of naked beauty has been declining. So much so that it's hard for one to see a naked body and not get sexually aroused. Filled with lusts of the flesh. Polluted with thoughts of doing the naked one and be done with it. Such things are terrible.
One must look upon the act of sex as an art form. To see two bodies entwined together, connected at the hip and/or the lips. A symbolic bond of possesive ownership. A bond that one shares with only one other, or with several others. Though it is my personal belief that such a powerful thing should be shared with your one and only. Also one must take time to savour the beauty of one's partner. Never having sex for the sake of having it, or giving in to lust. To take the time to feel every part of one's partner, to just look, admire, and be captivated by his/her beauty is the highest silent compliment one can give...
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
Big Changes
The letter arrived today, big changes in 5 weeks.
My heart sinks at the sight. My feet grows heavy, and I'm shuffling everywhere I go.
Obviously, I'm not in a very good mood right now.
The only thing that keeps me smiling is the thought that we'll see each other soon.
My heart sinks at the sight. My feet grows heavy, and I'm shuffling everywhere I go.
Obviously, I'm not in a very good mood right now.
The only thing that keeps me smiling is the thought that we'll see each other soon.
Literary Diary up and running.
Dear readers,
To the few people who do read my blog, thanks for reading with me thus far.
As I mentioned in my previous post, that will be the last literary work that I will post up on this blog.
I will be moving all my literary works to a new blog now. So if you're here to read the little poems, phrases and verses, this isn't the place for it anymore.
All of those will now be on http://www.thayron-literarydiary.blogspot.com/
Please take note that this new blog is by invite only. You can drop a comment on this post, send me an email via facebook, or email me if you're interested in being invited.
Once again, thanks to the the few readers who've read with me thus far!
Yours lovingly,
Ayron.
To the few people who do read my blog, thanks for reading with me thus far.
As I mentioned in my previous post, that will be the last literary work that I will post up on this blog.
I will be moving all my literary works to a new blog now. So if you're here to read the little poems, phrases and verses, this isn't the place for it anymore.
All of those will now be on http://www.thayron-literarydiary.blogspot.com/
Please take note that this new blog is by invite only. You can drop a comment on this post, send me an email via facebook, or email me if you're interested in being invited.
Once again, thanks to the the few readers who've read with me thus far!
Yours lovingly,
Ayron.
I want to...
I bring my knees to my chest.
Feeling the beating of my heart.
Hearing my heavy breathing.
Feeling the coldness of the floor.
The Autumn leaves are falling now.
The red, the orange, the yellow.
The dancing leaves blown in the wind.
Like royalty at a ball.
It's cold out there, behind the glass.
It's warm and safe in here.
But how long before I crumble?
How long before I fall?
I long to be held in your arms.
To be held in your soft embrace.
For you to hold me gently,
As a mother does her babe.
I want to be your joy.
I want to be your comfort.
Just as you are to me always.
Just as you've always been.
I want to kiss away your tears.
I want chase away your fears.
I want to cook breakfast for you.
To be there when you call.
So there's my declaration.
I await on the floor.
Seek me out before I crumble.
Please, don't let me fall.
P.S: Probably the last literary work that I will post here. I'm in the process of finding time off to start a new blog for my literary work. Will update about it soon.
Feeling the beating of my heart.
Hearing my heavy breathing.
Feeling the coldness of the floor.
The Autumn leaves are falling now.
The red, the orange, the yellow.
The dancing leaves blown in the wind.
Like royalty at a ball.
It's cold out there, behind the glass.
It's warm and safe in here.
But how long before I crumble?
How long before I fall?
I long to be held in your arms.
To be held in your soft embrace.
For you to hold me gently,
As a mother does her babe.
I want to be your joy.
I want to be your comfort.
Just as you are to me always.
Just as you've always been.
I want to kiss away your tears.
I want chase away your fears.
I want to cook breakfast for you.
To be there when you call.
So there's my declaration.
I await on the floor.
Seek me out before I crumble.
Please, don't let me fall.
P.S: Probably the last literary work that I will post here. I'm in the process of finding time off to start a new blog for my literary work. Will update about it soon.
The man who only wanted to be free.
I am screaming deep within.
Eating away at my soul.
But no one hears and no one cares.
I am left completely alone.
The faces I see are strange.
Distorted by Disgust. Pity. Anger.
What have I done to deserve this?
Nothing that I've asked for.
I look for love around me.
But there is none to be found.
Only cold harsh glares and firey rhetoric.
From the pulpit to the street.
The day is passed in agony.
The pain to keep up the facade.
It eats away from within me.
Killing me slowly, softly.
Till one day I am souless.
No emotions inside me.
Just an empty shell of a man.
That only wanted to be free.
Eating away at my soul.
But no one hears and no one cares.
I am left completely alone.
The faces I see are strange.
Distorted by Disgust. Pity. Anger.
What have I done to deserve this?
Nothing that I've asked for.
I look for love around me.
But there is none to be found.
Only cold harsh glares and firey rhetoric.
From the pulpit to the street.
The day is passed in agony.
The pain to keep up the facade.
It eats away from within me.
Killing me slowly, softly.
Till one day I am souless.
No emotions inside me.
Just an empty shell of a man.
That only wanted to be free.
Monday, October 25, 2010
The Law of Returns
A sum borrowed must always be repaid.
Kindness with kindness.
Evil with evil
Love with love
Hatred with hatred.
Happiness... with unhappiness.
Strangely, it is the only one that returns as the opposite.
Freedom for one day...
Free from thinking too much.
And it has to slip from me some time.
Which is now.
I've lost the euphoria.
I've lost the mood.
The insanity creeps in slowly.
So too do the bars.
Kindness with kindness.
Evil with evil
Love with love
Hatred with hatred.
Happiness... with unhappiness.
Strangely, it is the only one that returns as the opposite.
Freedom for one day...
Free from thinking too much.
And it has to slip from me some time.
Which is now.
I've lost the euphoria.
I've lost the mood.
The insanity creeps in slowly.
So too do the bars.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Dancing shadows
The red, the green. The blue, the yellow.
The flashing strobe lights.
The thumping beats, the trance inducing rythm.
My heart beats in tune with the music.
I look around, nothing but shadows.
Moving about in unsychronicity.
They bump into each other, unable to escape the touch.
Shadows. Featureless, yet beautiful to behold.
The flashing strobe lights.
The thumping beats, the trance inducing rythm.
My heart beats in tune with the music.
I look around, nothing but shadows.
Moving about in unsychronicity.
They bump into each other, unable to escape the touch.
Shadows. Featureless, yet beautiful to behold.
I wish you were here.
Valrhona chocolates.
A bottle of Rose.
Rain and cloudy skies.
Alone at home with no one but Kino.
Watching horror movies.
Writing little poems.
Drawing abstract art.
Listening to great music.
Looking forward to nightfall.
I wish you were here to share this with me.
A bottle of Rose.
Rain and cloudy skies.
Alone at home with no one but Kino.
Watching horror movies.
Writing little poems.
Drawing abstract art.
Listening to great music.
Looking forward to nightfall.
I wish you were here to share this with me.
*Yawn*
It's a brand new day!
Mum's coming back tomorrow, which means I get paid! Haha! Payday! My favourite time of the month.
I'm gonna hit the showers, and then have my breakfast!
Prata with curry! And maybe it's a little early, but I'll just indulge and have a bottle of riesling to go with it *Grin*
Yes, I know I shouldn't, yet I want to! Hahaha.
Well, first thing's first. A shower.
It's a brand new day!
Mum's coming back tomorrow, which means I get paid! Haha! Payday! My favourite time of the month.
I'm gonna hit the showers, and then have my breakfast!
Prata with curry! And maybe it's a little early, but I'll just indulge and have a bottle of riesling to go with it *Grin*
Yes, I know I shouldn't, yet I want to! Hahaha.
Well, first thing's first. A shower.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Going up to facebook is probably my biggest mistake today.
It's not helping my situation at all...
I thought you were going to get over it?
What's going on now?
Fuck off... I know that I'm supposed to get over it...
And I don't know what to think...
I did get a message, but that's the only nice thing about it...
You have to get over it...
I'll tell you what to think, and you'll listen.
Okay?
Fine, we'll talk later...
I gotta get back to work...
It's not helping my situation at all...
I thought you were going to get over it?
What's going on now?
Fuck off... I know that I'm supposed to get over it...
And I don't know what to think...
I did get a message, but that's the only nice thing about it...
You have to get over it...
I'll tell you what to think, and you'll listen.
Okay?
Fine, we'll talk later...
I gotta get back to work...
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Stop it Ayron. It's wrong.
It's not right...
It's a selfish thing to do.
Snap out of it and distant yourself.
But I can't!
Don't you see?! I can't!
And don't even tell me to try!
Because I can't! I won't!
God! Listen to yourself!
What's wrong? What's happened to you?
You need to sit down and think!
Get your answer and then forget about it...
Don't do this to yourself. It hurts...
And what about me?!
Do you think that this doesn't hurt me?!
I want it to be real. I want it so bad...
But knowing that it probably won't be true.
Or that it might be taken from me any minute...
What is this feeling that troubles me so?
I've never felt it so deep within.
Please, my son...
I wish you would stop thinking about it.
It's not good for you... And I want you to be happy.
You know what makes me happy...
And you know you can't give it.
It's not right...
It's a selfish thing to do.
Snap out of it and distant yourself.
But I can't!
Don't you see?! I can't!
And don't even tell me to try!
Because I can't! I won't!
God! Listen to yourself!
What's wrong? What's happened to you?
You need to sit down and think!
Get your answer and then forget about it...
Don't do this to yourself. It hurts...
And what about me?!
Do you think that this doesn't hurt me?!
I want it to be real. I want it so bad...
But knowing that it probably won't be true.
Or that it might be taken from me any minute...
What is this feeling that troubles me so?
I've never felt it so deep within.
Please, my son...
I wish you would stop thinking about it.
It's not good for you... And I want you to be happy.
You know what makes me happy...
And you know you can't give it.
It's nothing.
You don't know everything, Ayron.
No facts, only assumptions.
Assumptions will not lead you anywhere.
And if I don't act now, then what?
Lose it all? I can't stand it if I do.
I'm not sure what'll happen.
I'll move on and find something else to contemplate.
Perhaps...
And you must know this...
Silence is golden. If you do tell, and the results aren't what you expect.
Then all is lost. As much as they say things will remain the same..
They won't. You know this...
Trust me.
You don't know everything, Ayron.
No facts, only assumptions.
Assumptions will not lead you anywhere.
And if I don't act now, then what?
Lose it all? I can't stand it if I do.
I'm not sure what'll happen.
I'll move on and find something else to contemplate.
Perhaps...
And you must know this...
Silence is golden. If you do tell, and the results aren't what you expect.
Then all is lost. As much as they say things will remain the same..
They won't. You know this...
Trust me.
Pff... My confusion leds to frustration.
But if my confusion leads to frustration, could it be portents of something I've been dreading?
That whatever we are is actually non-existent?
That we could lose it all in an eye blink?
But still, under the surface, I have an inkling that that is not true.
That the reason for my frustration is my continuous lack of answers.
I have mine, but I don't have the other party's.
And that is the most important piece of the puzzle.
I need that answer, but daren't procure it.
Do I fear the answer? Yes I do.
Do I leave myself hanging in suspense. I don't want.
But if I fear the answer, then I must live with the suspense.
Only when I have become brave, and fear nothing,
Can I finally begin to get my answer.
And before such a time, I shall have to content myself with what I have.
And know that I may never get my answer.
But if my confusion leads to frustration, could it be portents of something I've been dreading?
That whatever we are is actually non-existent?
That we could lose it all in an eye blink?
But still, under the surface, I have an inkling that that is not true.
That the reason for my frustration is my continuous lack of answers.
I have mine, but I don't have the other party's.
And that is the most important piece of the puzzle.
I need that answer, but daren't procure it.
Do I fear the answer? Yes I do.
Do I leave myself hanging in suspense. I don't want.
But if I fear the answer, then I must live with the suspense.
Only when I have become brave, and fear nothing,
Can I finally begin to get my answer.
And before such a time, I shall have to content myself with what I have.
And know that I may never get my answer.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
The screen melts away.
The sun hides behind the hills.
The moon fades away.
The stars die.
I'm left alone.
In the dark.
In a familiar yet scary place.
And I sit and stare.
I dare not move.
I dare not breathe.
I dare not look.
I dare not live.
I feel it coming.
Nearer and nearer.
It sets it's eyes on me.
It desires me.
The monster, it's here.
In the room with me.
In the light of the red moon,
It stares at me.
I am consumed.
Piece by piece.
My skin, my flesh.
My spirit, my soul.
The sun hides behind the hills.
The moon fades away.
The stars die.
I'm left alone.
In the dark.
In a familiar yet scary place.
And I sit and stare.
I dare not move.
I dare not breathe.
I dare not look.
I dare not live.
I feel it coming.
Nearer and nearer.
It sets it's eyes on me.
It desires me.
The monster, it's here.
In the room with me.
In the light of the red moon,
It stares at me.
I am consumed.
Piece by piece.
My skin, my flesh.
My spirit, my soul.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Three Souls in One
Have I become so attached to you that I'm bordering on paranoia?
Perhpas the distance is the one thing keeping us together.
Familiarity breeds contempt. That's what people say.
Perhaps it's the distace that brings us closer to one another.
Three Souls in One.
The intellectual, the artist, the writer.
Three Souls in One.
One cannot live without the other
Perhpas the distance is the one thing keeping us together.
Familiarity breeds contempt. That's what people say.
Perhaps it's the distace that brings us closer to one another.
Three Souls in One.
The intellectual, the artist, the writer.
Three Souls in One.
One cannot live without the other
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Appreciation.
To probably the 2 most important friends to me...
You have lots to account for. The both of you have made me walk a road.
A road that I once took. But I swerved and changed from the walking path to a little dirt road.
On that little dirt road, the things I saw, and the things I experienced. I wasn't ready for it.
And I didn't like it... But then I met you. Things could only get better for me.
You helped me to feel confident in myself again. To be who I am, without needing to conform to society, or any clique. You helped me to appreciate myself again. Because I knew that the both of you liked me for who I am.
Be it my style, my personality, my characteristics. You liked it. And I found myself drawn to you.
I never knew that such a trip to a far away land could make such a thing happen.
But there, I had found my fellow soul. Perhaps it's too early to be writing such things.
Perhaps things might happen that may cause us to drift apart.
I hope that never happens. And if I were a praying man, I would pray for it not to happen.
But still, it's important that the both of you know how I feel...
One of you will read this. The other won't. But I'm still writing anyways, I don't know why.
In anycase, this is how I feel. So... Thanks. I wish I could do more than just write and say thank you.
I wish I could be there to take you guys out for a dinner, or a drink. Nothing spectacular, I know.
But it would be way better than writing this to you.
Very, very, sincerely,
Your friend,
Ayron Elijah Sim
You have lots to account for. The both of you have made me walk a road.
A road that I once took. But I swerved and changed from the walking path to a little dirt road.
On that little dirt road, the things I saw, and the things I experienced. I wasn't ready for it.
And I didn't like it... But then I met you. Things could only get better for me.
You helped me to feel confident in myself again. To be who I am, without needing to conform to society, or any clique. You helped me to appreciate myself again. Because I knew that the both of you liked me for who I am.
Be it my style, my personality, my characteristics. You liked it. And I found myself drawn to you.
I never knew that such a trip to a far away land could make such a thing happen.
But there, I had found my fellow soul. Perhaps it's too early to be writing such things.
Perhaps things might happen that may cause us to drift apart.
I hope that never happens. And if I were a praying man, I would pray for it not to happen.
But still, it's important that the both of you know how I feel...
One of you will read this. The other won't. But I'm still writing anyways, I don't know why.
In anycase, this is how I feel. So... Thanks. I wish I could do more than just write and say thank you.
I wish I could be there to take you guys out for a dinner, or a drink. Nothing spectacular, I know.
But it would be way better than writing this to you.
Very, very, sincerely,
Your friend,
Ayron Elijah Sim
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Bought a whole bunch of DVDs after dinner last night...
Still no sign of James Cameron's Avatar... Which made me a little less than sad...
But still having a whole bunch of horror movies, documentaries, foreign shows, does make me feel a little better.
Buying a new game helped that as well.
Gonna be off to work soon, and work my butt off. (Figuratively)
I wish there was no need for money... Alas, that's what the communists wanted, and I don't see it happening for a few more hundreds of years. But anywho I'll be back to enjoy some R&R later in the afternoon.
Gosh... I miss you...
What happens when the curtain falls?
The masks are dropped and so are the walls.
Behind the huge velvet curtains of the opera stage.
We look at each other, the 2 young men of age.
We both take steps forward,
Thinking of how to form our word.
Before you know it we're in front of each other.
Still staring and staring beyond the thoughts and bother.
In the light of the shadows.
In the presence of the crows.
We sit there on the edge.
Together we fall off the ledge.
Still no sign of James Cameron's Avatar... Which made me a little less than sad...
But still having a whole bunch of horror movies, documentaries, foreign shows, does make me feel a little better.
Buying a new game helped that as well.
Gonna be off to work soon, and work my butt off. (Figuratively)
I wish there was no need for money... Alas, that's what the communists wanted, and I don't see it happening for a few more hundreds of years. But anywho I'll be back to enjoy some R&R later in the afternoon.
Gosh... I miss you...
What happens when the curtain falls?
The masks are dropped and so are the walls.
Behind the huge velvet curtains of the opera stage.
We look at each other, the 2 young men of age.
We both take steps forward,
Thinking of how to form our word.
Before you know it we're in front of each other.
Still staring and staring beyond the thoughts and bother.
In the light of the shadows.
In the presence of the crows.
We sit there on the edge.
Together we fall off the ledge.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
What can I do?
I wait and wait but you never come.
You're here, but you aren't.
Should I wait still?
Should I leave?
Both seem unreasonable.
Yet reasonable at the same time.
Perhaps I'm expecting too much.
I should loosen my grip perhaps.
But if I do I'll be afraid.
And if I don't I suffocate.
To live or to die.
What is good for me?
What isn't?
I have no idea...
I wait and wait but you never come.
You're here, but you aren't.
Should I wait still?
Should I leave?
Both seem unreasonable.
Yet reasonable at the same time.
Perhaps I'm expecting too much.
I should loosen my grip perhaps.
But if I do I'll be afraid.
And if I don't I suffocate.
To live or to die.
What is good for me?
What isn't?
I have no idea...
Another lonely night.
I stare out the window.
I'm greeted by the moon and the stars.
They smile and twinkle in the dark of the night.
With kind sweet words of an alien language,
They lull me to sleep.
To sleep I shall go, and from sleep I shall return.
To the world where nothing is as it seems.
To the world where dreams are made real.
I shall dream of you, or at least I hope I shall.
Then I won't feel so lonely.
Talk to me when you can will you?
I miss you...
I stare out the window.
I'm greeted by the moon and the stars.
They smile and twinkle in the dark of the night.
With kind sweet words of an alien language,
They lull me to sleep.
To sleep I shall go, and from sleep I shall return.
To the world where nothing is as it seems.
To the world where dreams are made real.
I shall dream of you, or at least I hope I shall.
Then I won't feel so lonely.
Talk to me when you can will you?
I miss you...
Well, friday's booked... and Saturday... Ugh...
Saturday is another night at the uber expensive PS Cafe... again.
On some hill in some remote location in Singapore, which I still have no idea of how to get there by cheaper modes of transportation...
Should I go?
I'm not miserly, and would spend the money, but I won't be happy...
But she's a friend after all...
Graaaaahhhh!!!!
Saturday is another night at the uber expensive PS Cafe... again.
On some hill in some remote location in Singapore, which I still have no idea of how to get there by cheaper modes of transportation...
Should I go?
I'm not miserly, and would spend the money, but I won't be happy...
But she's a friend after all...
Graaaaahhhh!!!!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Paranoia fades away.
My paranoia faded away this morning.
And my sleep was well. I went to bed smiling.
But it's been replaced by this little sting to my heart.
A feeling that burns me.
I feel... Jealous?
Afraid?
I don't know... Both?
And my sleep was well. I went to bed smiling.
But it's been replaced by this little sting to my heart.
A feeling that burns me.
I feel... Jealous?
Afraid?
I don't know... Both?
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
If you ever left me, I don't know what I'd do.
I'd cry and cry and sob and sob, but in the end, I'll realize that it's true.
I'll think of the all fun we've had, and all the sorrows we've shared.
But in the end, I'll find some way to pick myself up again.
We'll both move on, you and I, and live out our lives.
But something in us will change as we've seen through each others eyes.
We might speak again, we might not. The hurt that it'll bring, unbearable.
And sooner or later we'll drift further apart, though that's not what I wish.
I'll think of you constantly. Every night and day.
"Please, I wish you'd stop, it's hurting your soul." I guess, that's what you'll say.
"I'll try my best, but I make no promise." That's what I'll reply.
But in my mind the answer is "Never! The memories are all that I have left."
I hope what I've written will never come to pass.
But the fates may conspire against us and tear up both apart.
I become paranoid and drown in my deepest desire.
...
I'd cry and cry and sob and sob, but in the end, I'll realize that it's true.
I'll think of the all fun we've had, and all the sorrows we've shared.
But in the end, I'll find some way to pick myself up again.
We'll both move on, you and I, and live out our lives.
But something in us will change as we've seen through each others eyes.
We might speak again, we might not. The hurt that it'll bring, unbearable.
And sooner or later we'll drift further apart, though that's not what I wish.
I'll think of you constantly. Every night and day.
"Please, I wish you'd stop, it's hurting your soul." I guess, that's what you'll say.
"I'll try my best, but I make no promise." That's what I'll reply.
But in my mind the answer is "Never! The memories are all that I have left."
I hope what I've written will never come to pass.
But the fates may conspire against us and tear up both apart.
I become paranoid and drown in my deepest desire.
...
The Lonely Man
The body at rest. The eyes closed.
Into a world of darkness I descend.
Still there's always the little light.
But it blinds me so...
I'm becoming paranoid.
Though I know I shouldn't.
Have I come to expect something?
Perhaps something that I shouldn't.
If I die, just let me be.
No sad songs, no tears.
Let me die with dignity.
With just the memory of you within.
I hope we'd never be apart.
Despite what has happened.
You'll always be in my thoughts.
And I hope I'll always be in yours.
-The lonely man.
Into a world of darkness I descend.
Still there's always the little light.
But it blinds me so...
I'm becoming paranoid.
Though I know I shouldn't.
Have I come to expect something?
Perhaps something that I shouldn't.
If I die, just let me be.
No sad songs, no tears.
Let me die with dignity.
With just the memory of you within.
I hope we'd never be apart.
Despite what has happened.
You'll always be in my thoughts.
And I hope I'll always be in yours.
-The lonely man.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Ubermensch und Untermensch
The concept of Ubermensch and Untermensch, which in German means 'Super human' and 'Sub-human' respectively, is a concept that would gather much controversy. Adolf Hitler's belief that Germans were Aryan, a race of Nordic super humans, and that all other races who were not were considered sub human, and therefore, 'Life unworthy of life'
The result of this classification of the human race has been the Holocaust. 6 million Jews and other undesirables (Political prisoners, Homosexuals, Religious prisoners and those of 'Non-Aryan' Descent). Not only that, but Hitler instituted the T4 Euthansia programme in a bid to stamp out hereditary diseases, genetic defects, mental and physical problems from within his own German Reich. This was so that future generations of Germans would not have these diseases and problems, which is not fitting with Hitler's ideal of the Aryan Ubermensch.
So would it be a problem if I said I believed in the concept of the Ubermensch? Probably. People would therefore associate me with racial discrimination, ethnic discrimination, intolerance, and the worst of all, a Neo-Nazi. Of which I would have to say that I'm not.
While I am a proponent of Super humans, I am an avid opponent of the concept of sub humans. There is no right bestowed upon us by our own morals and ethics that say that we should 'remove' those who are racially and ethnically different from us. There is nothing that says we should euhanise those who are suffering from ills.
My idea of the Ubermensch is not someone who thinks himself superior to others based on those lines. My idea of the Ubermensch will think himself superior because it is the truth. Enhanced mental capabilities, Immunity to diseases, lifespans of 500 years and more, etc, etc... How would the Ubermensch come about? Through genetic modifications, cybernetics, such as the exo-cortex, prosthetics that would replace failing body parts. The list is endless, but these are some of the ways I see it coming.
My concept of the Ubermensch will not include the idea of the Untermensch, as all men are equal. Be it rich or poor, smart or not so smart, male or female. The only thing there will be is that some of us will accept that they want to be superior mentally and physically, through bio-engineering, cybernetics, prosthetics, or a mix. While on the other hand, some of us might reject it claiming it to be a violation of the human body, against their morals and ethics or, in my view the worst argument of all, against their religion.
There is an Ubermensch, but no Untermensch. To believe contrarywise is not only dangerous to society at large, but is also a form of extremism which should be stamped out as soon as it is detected.
The result of this classification of the human race has been the Holocaust. 6 million Jews and other undesirables (Political prisoners, Homosexuals, Religious prisoners and those of 'Non-Aryan' Descent). Not only that, but Hitler instituted the T4 Euthansia programme in a bid to stamp out hereditary diseases, genetic defects, mental and physical problems from within his own German Reich. This was so that future generations of Germans would not have these diseases and problems, which is not fitting with Hitler's ideal of the Aryan Ubermensch.
So would it be a problem if I said I believed in the concept of the Ubermensch? Probably. People would therefore associate me with racial discrimination, ethnic discrimination, intolerance, and the worst of all, a Neo-Nazi. Of which I would have to say that I'm not.
While I am a proponent of Super humans, I am an avid opponent of the concept of sub humans. There is no right bestowed upon us by our own morals and ethics that say that we should 'remove' those who are racially and ethnically different from us. There is nothing that says we should euhanise those who are suffering from ills.
My idea of the Ubermensch is not someone who thinks himself superior to others based on those lines. My idea of the Ubermensch will think himself superior because it is the truth. Enhanced mental capabilities, Immunity to diseases, lifespans of 500 years and more, etc, etc... How would the Ubermensch come about? Through genetic modifications, cybernetics, such as the exo-cortex, prosthetics that would replace failing body parts. The list is endless, but these are some of the ways I see it coming.
My concept of the Ubermensch will not include the idea of the Untermensch, as all men are equal. Be it rich or poor, smart or not so smart, male or female. The only thing there will be is that some of us will accept that they want to be superior mentally and physically, through bio-engineering, cybernetics, prosthetics, or a mix. While on the other hand, some of us might reject it claiming it to be a violation of the human body, against their morals and ethics or, in my view the worst argument of all, against their religion.
There is an Ubermensch, but no Untermensch. To believe contrarywise is not only dangerous to society at large, but is also a form of extremism which should be stamped out as soon as it is detected.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
I am Chaos
I have watched the milleniums go by...
Not a day passes without my watching.
The strings of the universe are pulled by me.
I am not God. I am not the Devil. I am not Fate.
Who am I? What am I? Irrelevant questions that have no answers.
The most brilliant of minds fail to grasp who I am.
The simplest of minds, don't know what I am.
I am He who walks among the stars.
The Giver of Life, the Destroyer of Worlds
I place each star in it's proper place, and light up the night sky.
The sun sits in my right hand. The moon in my left.
My right hand burns daily, yet is not burnt.
My left hand freezes nightly, yet is not frozen
The complexity of my insanity is absurdity in action.
I create the creatures of myths, and the constructs of doom.
Unicorns and centaurs, sirens and minotaurs.
All are my children, all are my children's children.
The Golden Angels stand behind me, dictating what I speak.
The Silver Angels stand beside me, deciphering what I think.
But my dearest of children, the Iron Angels, sit at my feet.
Ready to fly on wings of cold metal, and do my bidding.
And so that is my entourage. A mixture of the high and the low.
We travel the starry lanes, visiting each world that I have crafted.
We travel to different dimensions, sowing discord and harmony.
I am Peace Bringer, and War Monger.
I am Light and Dark. Life and Death.
The absurdity of my action is the complexity of my insanity.
Erratic are my movements, irrational are my thoughts.
Slurred is my speech and broken are my limbs.
I am Chaos.
Not a day passes without my watching.
The strings of the universe are pulled by me.
I am not God. I am not the Devil. I am not Fate.
Who am I? What am I? Irrelevant questions that have no answers.
The most brilliant of minds fail to grasp who I am.
The simplest of minds, don't know what I am.
I am He who walks among the stars.
The Giver of Life, the Destroyer of Worlds
I place each star in it's proper place, and light up the night sky.
The sun sits in my right hand. The moon in my left.
My right hand burns daily, yet is not burnt.
My left hand freezes nightly, yet is not frozen
The complexity of my insanity is absurdity in action.
I create the creatures of myths, and the constructs of doom.
Unicorns and centaurs, sirens and minotaurs.
All are my children, all are my children's children.
The Golden Angels stand behind me, dictating what I speak.
The Silver Angels stand beside me, deciphering what I think.
But my dearest of children, the Iron Angels, sit at my feet.
Ready to fly on wings of cold metal, and do my bidding.
And so that is my entourage. A mixture of the high and the low.
We travel the starry lanes, visiting each world that I have crafted.
We travel to different dimensions, sowing discord and harmony.
I am Peace Bringer, and War Monger.
I am Light and Dark. Life and Death.
The absurdity of my action is the complexity of my insanity.
Erratic are my movements, irrational are my thoughts.
Slurred is my speech and broken are my limbs.
I am Chaos.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
The Great Accepter
We live, we die.
We burn, we freeze.
We awake, we sleep.
Death waits for us with open arms
Ready to embrace us in the final moment.
The loving mother to all us sinners.
The Great Accepter.
We burn, we freeze.
We awake, we sleep.
Death waits for us with open arms
Ready to embrace us in the final moment.
The loving mother to all us sinners.
The Great Accepter.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
the barrel at my temple.
the slug in the barrel.
the finger on the trigger
the impulse through my veins.
the finger twitch.
the metal moves.
the slug rushes down.
the bullet smashes.
the blood flows.
the world falls silent.
the colours fade and dim.
the breathing slows.
the blue and red flashes.
the crowd gathers.
the people are curious.
the name fades into obscurity.
the slug in the barrel.
the finger on the trigger
the impulse through my veins.
the finger twitch.
the metal moves.
the slug rushes down.
the bullet smashes.
the blood flows.
the world falls silent.
the colours fade and dim.
the breathing slows.
the blue and red flashes.
the crowd gathers.
the people are curious.
the name fades into obscurity.
I've noticed things about me.
1) I've been feeling really restless within. Though it doesn't show outwardly, inside I'm screaming for freedom... It's painful, and it really hurts. But after so long the pain is numbed. Now riddle me this. Is that good or bad?
2) Emails from you in the morning makes me smile. That is the one thing that I hope time won't change.
3) I'm feeling a little apprehensive of the future, and what it'll bring. It's always the unknown which scares the shit outta me...
4) I find it easier to believe that like minded people from elsewhere genuinely appreciate me for who I am. Sorry to all those who don't fit in this category.
I am a person with the need to be active. My mind needs to be stimulated at all times through creative thinking, problem solving and thinking deeply. A good debate from time to time helps as well.
Besides being mentally active, I do appreciate being physically active as well. Anything that isn't sports would do. Recreational activities. Rock climbing (Though I haven't done it in almost 4 years), Parkour (Though I haven't really got the necessary skills), etc, etc...
Why I'm writing this, I've got no idea...
A testament to my boredom.
1) I've been feeling really restless within. Though it doesn't show outwardly, inside I'm screaming for freedom... It's painful, and it really hurts. But after so long the pain is numbed. Now riddle me this. Is that good or bad?
2) Emails from you in the morning makes me smile. That is the one thing that I hope time won't change.
3) I'm feeling a little apprehensive of the future, and what it'll bring. It's always the unknown which scares the shit outta me...
4) I find it easier to believe that like minded people from elsewhere genuinely appreciate me for who I am. Sorry to all those who don't fit in this category.
I am a person with the need to be active. My mind needs to be stimulated at all times through creative thinking, problem solving and thinking deeply. A good debate from time to time helps as well.
Besides being mentally active, I do appreciate being physically active as well. Anything that isn't sports would do. Recreational activities. Rock climbing (Though I haven't done it in almost 4 years), Parkour (Though I haven't really got the necessary skills), etc, etc...
Why I'm writing this, I've got no idea...
A testament to my boredom.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Biting hands
When you bite the hand of those who feed you.
Don't expect it to feed you again.
Go off, and search for another.
And make sure you don't bite that hand as well.
Don't expect it to feed you again.
Go off, and search for another.
And make sure you don't bite that hand as well.
I burn within.
But outwardly am cold.
Nothing remains inside.
Just ash and ice.
A cold flame washes over me.
Cleansing, purifying.
I drop to my knees,
In nothing but awe.
What is this?
What is this power that fills me?
The strength of a dozen comes.
The wisdom of 20 brains comes.
But with all this power,
I am at a loss at what to do.
My life feels meaningless.
And I am wandering.
Lost I am.
I am lost.
In the abyss, surrounded by cold dark walls.
No light comes, no sound reaches my ears.
Rescue me.
Leave me.
Kill me.
Burn me.
Watch as I crumble.
Watch as I turn to dust.
Ashes to ashes.
Dust to dust.
My soul is no more.
My life is gone.
No more am I here.
No more of me will you see.
But outwardly am cold.
Nothing remains inside.
Just ash and ice.
A cold flame washes over me.
Cleansing, purifying.
I drop to my knees,
In nothing but awe.
What is this?
What is this power that fills me?
The strength of a dozen comes.
The wisdom of 20 brains comes.
But with all this power,
I am at a loss at what to do.
My life feels meaningless.
And I am wandering.
Lost I am.
I am lost.
In the abyss, surrounded by cold dark walls.
No light comes, no sound reaches my ears.
Rescue me.
Leave me.
Kill me.
Burn me.
Watch as I crumble.
Watch as I turn to dust.
Ashes to ashes.
Dust to dust.
My soul is no more.
My life is gone.
No more am I here.
No more of me will you see.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Vampirism.
Man... What's with my fascination with blood?!
I so feel like cutting myself and drinking my own blood.
Paint my face real white, and get pale blue contact lenses...
Dress up in leather and wear eyeliner.
Go out in the day with shades and a brolly.
And be super active at night.
Oooh... Vampirism...
Haha~
Funny. I like the word. Vampirism.
Haha~
It just seems to roll off my tongue.
I'll let y'all know if I ever get round to doing what I said.
I so feel like cutting myself and drinking my own blood.
Paint my face real white, and get pale blue contact lenses...
Dress up in leather and wear eyeliner.
Go out in the day with shades and a brolly.
And be super active at night.
Oooh... Vampirism...
Haha~
Funny. I like the word. Vampirism.
Haha~
It just seems to roll off my tongue.
I'll let y'all know if I ever get round to doing what I said.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Ich bin ihre Marionette.
A marionette on a string.
That's what I am.
I sing and dance, laugh and cry,
All for your delight.
I'm made of fine maple,
Painted with natural dyes.
I have sapphires for eyes,
And silk for my clothes.
I'll bring you joy and laughter,
Even though you hate me.
For that's all that I'm here for,
To bring you euphoria and more.
The day will come, when I've no more value.
Little more than a flexible piece of wood.
You'll cast me aside, like a dirty old rag,
And I'll sit and wait for my time again.
As time goes by my body will rot.
My clothes will be eaten by moths,
And my colour will fade.
But my eyes with tears, will sparkle forever.
That's what I am.
I sing and dance, laugh and cry,
All for your delight.
I'm made of fine maple,
Painted with natural dyes.
I have sapphires for eyes,
And silk for my clothes.
I'll bring you joy and laughter,
Even though you hate me.
For that's all that I'm here for,
To bring you euphoria and more.
The day will come, when I've no more value.
Little more than a flexible piece of wood.
You'll cast me aside, like a dirty old rag,
And I'll sit and wait for my time again.
As time goes by my body will rot.
My clothes will be eaten by moths,
And my colour will fade.
But my eyes with tears, will sparkle forever.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Stuck in this hollow shell of a man,
My soul waits and waits and waits.
For that moment in time, when all is still.
When all I see is unphased and real.
I want to sprout wings and fly.
Away from this, and away from here.
From the suffering and anguish,
From the tears and the fears.
When the time comes, my soul shall break free.
Shaking the ashes off my bones,
I shall walk on the dark side of the sun.
Burning, burning, burning.
My soul waits and waits and waits.
For that moment in time, when all is still.
When all I see is unphased and real.
I want to sprout wings and fly.
Away from this, and away from here.
From the suffering and anguish,
From the tears and the fears.
When the time comes, my soul shall break free.
Shaking the ashes off my bones,
I shall walk on the dark side of the sun.
Burning, burning, burning.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Back from Ikea
Back from Ikea... Again...
Ah well, at least this time it's for keeps.
A little miffed about my room not being done the way I want it.
And also about the fact that my room is too small to accomadate a nice double bed...
Don't my parents know that I like big wide space for my sleep?
And that someday I'm gonna get attached and share my bed as well?
*Sigh* Oh well, I guess having a single bed will mak things cozier between me and my partner-to-be *fg*
Ah well, at least this time it's for keeps.
A little miffed about my room not being done the way I want it.
And also about the fact that my room is too small to accomadate a nice double bed...
Don't my parents know that I like big wide space for my sleep?
And that someday I'm gonna get attached and share my bed as well?
*Sigh* Oh well, I guess having a single bed will mak things cozier between me and my partner-to-be *fg*
Monday, August 30, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
I wonder...
I saw an ant, scurrying about.
I wonder what it's thinking of..
"A giant human is staring at me!"
"Gotta find something..."
"-blank-"
I saw a bird flying in the sky.
I wonder what it's thinking of..
"Fly, fly, fly..."
"Where's my nest?"
"-blank-"
I saw humans today.
I wonder what they're thinking of..
"Where should I go now?"
"What should I eat?"
"-blank-"
I saw myself in the mirror.
I wonder what I'm thinking of..
"Who am I?"
"What am I?"
"What's my worth?"
I wonder what it's thinking of..
"A giant human is staring at me!"
"Gotta find something..."
"-blank-"
I saw a bird flying in the sky.
I wonder what it's thinking of..
"Fly, fly, fly..."
"Where's my nest?"
"-blank-"
I saw humans today.
I wonder what they're thinking of..
"Where should I go now?"
"What should I eat?"
"-blank-"
I saw myself in the mirror.
I wonder what I'm thinking of..
"Who am I?"
"What am I?"
"What's my worth?"
Saturday, August 28, 2010
I now have a son, and a wife that I didn't know existed...
The wonders of parenthood...
That aside, today's been a pretty good day.
It feels good to meet up with Cat and Nicky again after a long break...
And today I was late *Gasp! Shock! Disbelief!*
I know... Fucking train's fault, not mine...
And I got myself some dark chocolate and a new pair of shades.
And boy do they look good!
The wonders of parenthood...
That aside, today's been a pretty good day.
It feels good to meet up with Cat and Nicky again after a long break...
And today I was late *Gasp! Shock! Disbelief!*
I know... Fucking train's fault, not mine...
And I got myself some dark chocolate and a new pair of shades.
And boy do they look good!
Friday, August 27, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
The ability of children to think unrealistically, to dream big, and to want the impossible, is one of their most endearing traits.
Because once they grow a little older, skepticism and reality sets in. Their thinking becomes based on reality. Their dreams, small. And they only want what they can get...
Perhaps it's time for me to think unrealistically, dream big, and want the impossible, all over again...
Because once they grow a little older, skepticism and reality sets in. Their thinking becomes based on reality. Their dreams, small. And they only want what they can get...
Perhaps it's time for me to think unrealistically, dream big, and want the impossible, all over again...
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Fragmented memories and fictional reality.
The dam burst and flooded the plain.
Fragmented memories started to spill forth.
Catching glimpses of the present and the past.
The hands of my mind started to play.
Placing each piece where it should be.
A jigsaw puzzle, if you will.
A masterpiece of the night.
A night of sadness and sorrow.
But no tears and no sighs.
The Night has it's hold on me,
As slumber soon reaches my eyes.
The Night allows no rest, no reprieve.
In my dreams it starts to haunt.
The memories are real, the reality isn't.
A fictional reality, an imagined imagination.
Faces that have names, and faces that don't.
Yet subconciously, I know them by name.
Faces of friends, yet strangely not of foes.
And it is the faces of friends that bring me the pain.
A strange twist of fate, where those who aren't supposed to,
End up hurting you more than those who should.
Fragmented memories and fictional reality.
That's the name of the game.
The game of the Night.
My cruel mistress, my beloved saviour.
The day comes and rises from the horizon.
Light feels the sky, and hits me in the eyes.
I open my eyes, relieved, yet upset.
The Night has gone, and the day has begun.
Back to being another one of billions.
Back to being one of the dead.
Though the Night is gone for now,
It's comforting to know, that He'll return again.
Always coming and going, just like people.
Yet more majestic and beautiful than anything I've known.
Fragmented memories and fictional reality.
That's the name of the game.
That's the game of the Night.
Fragmented memories started to spill forth.
Catching glimpses of the present and the past.
The hands of my mind started to play.
Placing each piece where it should be.
A jigsaw puzzle, if you will.
A masterpiece of the night.
A night of sadness and sorrow.
But no tears and no sighs.
The Night has it's hold on me,
As slumber soon reaches my eyes.
The Night allows no rest, no reprieve.
In my dreams it starts to haunt.
The memories are real, the reality isn't.
A fictional reality, an imagined imagination.
Faces that have names, and faces that don't.
Yet subconciously, I know them by name.
Faces of friends, yet strangely not of foes.
And it is the faces of friends that bring me the pain.
A strange twist of fate, where those who aren't supposed to,
End up hurting you more than those who should.
Fragmented memories and fictional reality.
That's the name of the game.
The game of the Night.
My cruel mistress, my beloved saviour.
The day comes and rises from the horizon.
Light feels the sky, and hits me in the eyes.
I open my eyes, relieved, yet upset.
The Night has gone, and the day has begun.
Back to being another one of billions.
Back to being one of the dead.
Though the Night is gone for now,
It's comforting to know, that He'll return again.
Always coming and going, just like people.
Yet more majestic and beautiful than anything I've known.
Fragmented memories and fictional reality.
That's the name of the game.
That's the game of the Night.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Life goes on without me
Life goes on without me.
The cosmos move as they always have.
I'm one of billions. Just like the stars.
But not shining brightly like they are.
I stand in a busy street.
With people passing by.
But yet they will fail to notice,
The man who's at the side.
Life goes on without me.
That will always be true.
I'm one of the billions, the walking dead.
Leave me or save me.
The cosmos move as they always have.
I'm one of billions. Just like the stars.
But not shining brightly like they are.
I stand in a busy street.
With people passing by.
But yet they will fail to notice,
The man who's at the side.
Life goes on without me.
That will always be true.
I'm one of the billions, the walking dead.
Leave me or save me.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Fun!!!
Testing, testing, 1,2,3...
Just trying out my Bamboo's word recognition power.
And...
IT WORKS!!!
Hahaha... Stupid post... Ich weiss...
Just trying out my Bamboo's word recognition power.
And...
IT WORKS!!!
Hahaha... Stupid post... Ich weiss...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
The love of the night
When the sun sets, my spirit feels alive.
In the cold dark of the night, I feel energized.
Be it the chilling wind, or the caressing light of the moon,
I love the night, as it embraces me.
In the day I am but one of millions.
Walking, talking, breathing.
In the night, I am one of one.
Thinking, drawing, writing.
The night embraces my true nature,
The thinker, the artist, the poet.
The day accepts my lies.
To be one of millions. One of the dead.
To be in eternal twilight,
Neither night nor day.
The time that dreams are dreamt.
And hopes are all realized.
In the cold dark of the night, I feel energized.
Be it the chilling wind, or the caressing light of the moon,
I love the night, as it embraces me.
In the day I am but one of millions.
Walking, talking, breathing.
In the night, I am one of one.
Thinking, drawing, writing.
The night embraces my true nature,
The thinker, the artist, the poet.
The day accepts my lies.
To be one of millions. One of the dead.
To be in eternal twilight,
Neither night nor day.
The time that dreams are dreamt.
And hopes are all realized.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Pink clouds, blue skies
So, it's been about 3 hours since I was at the dentist...
Well, it's been an experience...
Anyways, here are 2 pics of a drawing I just did.
It's a picture of a dream I had last night...
Sunset/sunrise with blue skies and pink clouds.
Well, it's been an experience...
Anyways, here are 2 pics of a drawing I just did.
It's a picture of a dream I had last night...
Sunset/sunrise with blue skies and pink clouds.
Without flash
With flash
Thursday, August 5, 2010
When we met, I didn't knew.
But I think I might be falling for you.
Your charm and affection,
It's like an infection.
We just met, so I'm not sure it's true.
But if it is, I'll be waiting just for you.
You hold me in your tight embrace,
Together, we'll set this town ablaze.
Distance and time, are but a number,
But I'll always miss you, as I slumber.
Whenever I am down and feeling blue,
I know that I can always count on you.
I'll understand if it's not what you want to hear,
But I hope that we'll still be friends forever.
I won't cry, and I won't wait,
I'll just attribute it to fate.
But I think I might be falling for you.
Your charm and affection,
It's like an infection.
We just met, so I'm not sure it's true.
But if it is, I'll be waiting just for you.
You hold me in your tight embrace,
Together, we'll set this town ablaze.
Distance and time, are but a number,
But I'll always miss you, as I slumber.
Whenever I am down and feeling blue,
I know that I can always count on you.
I'll understand if it's not what you want to hear,
But I hope that we'll still be friends forever.
I won't cry, and I won't wait,
I'll just attribute it to fate.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Tempted.
Tempted to do what I've not done for a while...
I think I'll give in and just do it...
The voice within.
It whispers softly.
In the silence of the night.
That is all I hear.
Obeying the commands,
To seek relief from this world.
Escape to the lies.
And seek comfort within.
I think I'll give in and just do it...
The voice within.
It whispers softly.
In the silence of the night.
That is all I hear.
Obeying the commands,
To seek relief from this world.
Escape to the lies.
And seek comfort within.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
I'm back
Hello readers!
After a long hiatus of almost 3 months, Transhuman Ayron is back again.
I will do my best to update as often as I possibly can.
So do check it out, and leave your thoughts!
Transhuman Ayron
After a long hiatus of almost 3 months, Transhuman Ayron is back again.
I will do my best to update as often as I possibly can.
So do check it out, and leave your thoughts!
Transhuman Ayron
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
The red sun shines
The red sun shines,
O'er the fields and o'er the sea.
The red sun shines,
But not o'er me.
My life is lived in solitude,
My eyes see in black and white.
My ears are used to silence,
I live my life despite.
I used to see in colour,
I used to sing in rhyme.
But ever since you left my sight,
All I do is mime.
I long for you once more,
I live to see the day.
But the days go by and you don't come,
"Give up." That's what they say.
I wander about the street.
I shamble in the alley.
I get back home onto my sheet,
And darkness is all I see.
The red sun shines, o'er the sheet,
And finally o'er me.
The red sun shines, onto me
And blood is all they see.
O'er the fields and o'er the sea.
The red sun shines,
But not o'er me.
My life is lived in solitude,
My eyes see in black and white.
My ears are used to silence,
I live my life despite.
I used to see in colour,
I used to sing in rhyme.
But ever since you left my sight,
All I do is mime.
I long for you once more,
I live to see the day.
But the days go by and you don't come,
"Give up." That's what they say.
I wander about the street.
I shamble in the alley.
I get back home onto my sheet,
And darkness is all I see.
The red sun shines, o'er the sheet,
And finally o'er me.
The red sun shines, onto me
And blood is all they see.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Home at last! I think...
At last my long journey comes to an end...
I am safely at home now, and so I'm gonna blog and unpack my luggage at the same time.
The journey started on the 15th of July. Flying from Singapur to London.
Then from London to Paris.
Then Paris to Barcelona.
Then Barcelona to Munich.
Then Munich to Bochum.
Then Bochum to Frankfurt.
And finally from Frankfurt to Singapur...
I'm home at last. But somehow I don't feel home...
I shan't regale my tales of adventure here. At least not now...
I shall however tell it to those who wish to hear, so just ask.
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I am safely at home now, and so I'm gonna blog and unpack my luggage at the same time.
The journey started on the 15th of July. Flying from Singapur to London.
Then from London to Paris.
Then Paris to Barcelona.
Then Barcelona to Munich.
Then Munich to Bochum.
Then Bochum to Frankfurt.
And finally from Frankfurt to Singapur...
I'm home at last. But somehow I don't feel home...
I shan't regale my tales of adventure here. At least not now...
I shall however tell it to those who wish to hear, so just ask.
London Bridge
The Tower of London
The London Eye
Parliament House and Big Ben
Same, except with Westminster Abbey
St. Paul's Cathedral
I love this car...
Arc de Triomphe
Same
Tequila Sunrise, in the afternoon... Bad idea...
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Jojo und Ich in Paris
Jojo und Ich in Muenchen
Many Gackt fans and I in Bochum
Sunday, July 25, 2010
On the way home
At last... I'm on my way home soon, and will arrive back in Singapur in about 25 hours.
But before then, I will see Jojo again!!!
Yaaahhh!!!
And then it will be 3 years before I see him again.
But before then, I will see Jojo again!!!
Yaaahhh!!!
And then it will be 3 years before I see him again.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
10 days in Europe
Packing now...
And I'm too lazy to do it...
But I gotta...
10 days travelling in Europe.
Starting in London.
Down south to Paris.
Down further south to Barcelona.
North to Munich
Further up north to Bochum.
Ending in Frankfurt.
10 days plus minus 1 day for travelling.
Packing, packing, packing...
And I'm too lazy to do it...
But I gotta...
10 days travelling in Europe.
Starting in London.
Down south to Paris.
Down further south to Barcelona.
North to Munich
Further up north to Bochum.
Ending in Frankfurt.
10 days plus minus 1 day for travelling.
Packing, packing, packing...
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Which, what, why, when, how?
Stop. Think. Act.
Act. Think. Stop.
Which am I?
A creature of impulse.
A being of desire.
What am I?
Pleasure seeker.
Heartbreaker.
Why am I?
Alive.
Dead.
When am I?
Revitalized.
Depleted.
How am I?
Love.
Hate.
Act. Think. Stop.
Which am I?
A creature of impulse.
A being of desire.
What am I?
Pleasure seeker.
Heartbreaker.
Why am I?
Alive.
Dead.
When am I?
Revitalized.
Depleted.
How am I?
Love.
Hate.
To those dear to me,
I wish that I could do something more than just write this to express how grateful I am for all that you've done for me, and for standing by me. Recent happenings have shown me that I stand quite alone, compared to what I have come to believe. Though in no way comparable to what others go through.
To my mum. The one who stands by me, come what may.
This is all I have to say...
I love you.
To my friends. The joy bringers and counsellors.
I stand by you, just as you stand by me.
I hope to repay you all someday with more than just gifts and words.
And believe me when I say that I'll be loyal and true.
A huge thank you to all of you!
I wish that I could do something more than just write this to express how grateful I am for all that you've done for me, and for standing by me. Recent happenings have shown me that I stand quite alone, compared to what I have come to believe. Though in no way comparable to what others go through.
To my mum. The one who stands by me, come what may.
This is all I have to say...
I love you.
To my friends. The joy bringers and counsellors.
I stand by you, just as you stand by me.
I hope to repay you all someday with more than just gifts and words.
And believe me when I say that I'll be loyal and true.
A huge thank you to all of you!
Friday, July 9, 2010
Belated update.
I feel like there has been no need to update what I've been doing.
The memories alone are precious and dear enough to never forget.
But in the event that I do, I hope that there will always be something to remind.
And so, I update now about the cruise trip with lovely mum, awesome friends.
Brought Lokies and Fen Mien up on cruise with me.
Mum was nice enough to get us a room at a lower price.
We did many things on board.
But I don't wanna bore with details.
A picture speaks a thousand words.
So now I'm gonna giveyou several thousand words.
Enjoy!
The memories alone are precious and dear enough to never forget.
But in the event that I do, I hope that there will always be something to remind.
And so, I update now about the cruise trip with lovely mum, awesome friends.
Brought Lokies and Fen Mien up on cruise with me.
Mum was nice enough to get us a room at a lower price.
We did many things on board.
But I don't wanna bore with details.
A picture speaks a thousand words.
So now I'm gonna giveyou several thousand words.
Enjoy!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
The Wanderer.
The Wanderer walks,
Empty and blue.
He walks for miles,
Over land and sea.
The reason for his wandering,
He wouldn't say.
Passerbys could only,
Wonder and sigh.
He walks over mountains.
Crosses over seas.
Walking through the scorching day,
Walking through the freezing night.
At last, at last,
His destination, he came to be.
The place he could find solace.
The place where he should be.
In the home of a friend.
So warm and so safe.
In the presence of a friend.
So warm and so safe.
The Wanderer laid down to rest,
His head touched the ground, and he was no more.
Out he was, like a candle in a breeze.
Soundly asleep forever more.
Empty and blue.
He walks for miles,
Over land and sea.
The reason for his wandering,
He wouldn't say.
Passerbys could only,
Wonder and sigh.
He walks over mountains.
Crosses over seas.
Walking through the scorching day,
Walking through the freezing night.
At last, at last,
His destination, he came to be.
The place he could find solace.
The place where he should be.
In the home of a friend.
So warm and so safe.
In the presence of a friend.
So warm and so safe.
The Wanderer laid down to rest,
His head touched the ground, and he was no more.
Out he was, like a candle in a breeze.
Soundly asleep forever more.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
Ich bin ein machine
I'm a machine.
Tell me clearly what you want me to do, and what you don't want me to do.
Tell me clearly what you want me to say, and what you don't want me to say.
Otherwise, this machine is gonna assume and take things into his own hands.
Tell me clearly what you want me to do, and what you don't want me to do.
Tell me clearly what you want me to say, and what you don't want me to say.
Otherwise, this machine is gonna assume and take things into his own hands.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
The world that man live in
In the world of eternal night,
The realm of infinite snow.
The seas flow over with tears,
The roads fill up with fears.
Amidst the dreary masses,
A tiny spark of hope.
The little angel borne on wings,
The littel angel leashed with rope.
The master of the angel,
A towering obelisk of Darkness.
He strides above mere mortals,
Penetrates with his steely gaze.
The master of the Darkness,
The raw emotions of man.
The writhing mass of anger and hatred,
The swirling pool of sorrow and tears.
The world that man dream of,
Will never be reality.
For the world that man live in,
Is created by their feelings.
The Creators stay high above,
Staring down at their Creations.
They heave a sigh of sadness,
And leave behind their chosen.
The realm of infinite snow.
The seas flow over with tears,
The roads fill up with fears.
Amidst the dreary masses,
A tiny spark of hope.
The little angel borne on wings,
The littel angel leashed with rope.
The master of the angel,
A towering obelisk of Darkness.
He strides above mere mortals,
Penetrates with his steely gaze.
The master of the Darkness,
The raw emotions of man.
The writhing mass of anger and hatred,
The swirling pool of sorrow and tears.
The world that man dream of,
Will never be reality.
For the world that man live in,
Is created by their feelings.
The Creators stay high above,
Staring down at their Creations.
They heave a sigh of sadness,
And leave behind their chosen.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Boredomitis. No1 Teenage killer.
I've come down with severe boredomitis...
Symptoms include...
-Sleeping. Excessively.
-Staring blankly into nothingness.
-Talking to random inanimate objects.
-Daydreaming.
-Walking around randomly.
*Sigh* It's gonna be a loooonnnnngggggg weekend...
Symptoms include...
-Sleeping. Excessively.
-Staring blankly into nothingness.
-Talking to random inanimate objects.
-Daydreaming.
-Walking around randomly.
*Sigh* It's gonna be a loooonnnnngggggg weekend...
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
2nd Night
Lokies, you were absolutely right!
Sunday was even much more spectacular than Saturday!
So, I was at Zirca for my 2nd night of clubbing, and it's absolutely amazing!
The opening was spectacular, the music was great!
The company was fun, and I learned that I actually knew how to dance!
Haha!
Really, absolutely amazingly crazy night!
It was so mind blowing!
Can't wait for the next time!
Sunday was even much more spectacular than Saturday!
So, I was at Zirca for my 2nd night of clubbing, and it's absolutely amazing!
The opening was spectacular, the music was great!
The company was fun, and I learned that I actually knew how to dance!
Haha!
Really, absolutely amazingly crazy night!
It was so mind blowing!
Can't wait for the next time!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Clubbing virgin no more!
It was an absolutely amazing night!
And I'm proud to say that my clubbing virginity has been taken!
I was so excited and slightly apprehensive, not knowing what to expect.
But my fears were unfounded.
The night started at Taboo, where I watched a drag show, celebrating Christina Aguilera's new album, "Bionic". Met a few people while I was there, and it was a great start to an awesome night!
We headed down to Tantric, just opposite Taboo to grab some drinks there.
It was my first time drinking without parents, outside and in a club. So I had a Long Island.
Wonderful drink, not too strong, just nice. And I was just dancing along,drink in my hand. Absolutely crazy!
I met somemore people there, and they were all just wonderful people to be with!
After Tantric, we went on to Play, which is where we spent most of the remainder of the night.
I paid for my most expesive coke there. $15.00!!! But fuck it! I enjoyed myself, and that's what matters!
Then someone came and bought me a drink. I was really happy!
Then I was pulled to the dance floor, just in time to dance to the last 3 songs for the night!
And as much as I said "I don't dance.", there was no denying it. I was dancing last night!
The night was coming to an end, with us heading down to Maxwell food center. I didn't eat, just drank.
And we were just talking and chilling, and then we headed down to Chinatown to grab a cab home.
The night ended at 5.45am. Just 5 hours after it had started...
But I absolutely enjoyed those 5 hours with all the wonderful people.
And I wouldn't have changed a single moment of it, even if I could.
I've still got much to learn. But I ain't afraid no more.
And I'm proud to say that my clubbing virginity has been taken!
I was so excited and slightly apprehensive, not knowing what to expect.
But my fears were unfounded.
The night started at Taboo, where I watched a drag show, celebrating Christina Aguilera's new album, "Bionic". Met a few people while I was there, and it was a great start to an awesome night!
We headed down to Tantric, just opposite Taboo to grab some drinks there.
It was my first time drinking without parents, outside and in a club. So I had a Long Island.
Wonderful drink, not too strong, just nice. And I was just dancing along,drink in my hand. Absolutely crazy!
I met somemore people there, and they were all just wonderful people to be with!
After Tantric, we went on to Play, which is where we spent most of the remainder of the night.
I paid for my most expesive coke there. $15.00!!! But fuck it! I enjoyed myself, and that's what matters!
Then someone came and bought me a drink. I was really happy!
Then I was pulled to the dance floor, just in time to dance to the last 3 songs for the night!
And as much as I said "I don't dance.", there was no denying it. I was dancing last night!
The night was coming to an end, with us heading down to Maxwell food center. I didn't eat, just drank.
And we were just talking and chilling, and then we headed down to Chinatown to grab a cab home.
The night ended at 5.45am. Just 5 hours after it had started...
But I absolutely enjoyed those 5 hours with all the wonderful people.
And I wouldn't have changed a single moment of it, even if I could.
I've still got much to learn. But I ain't afraid no more.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
From the first time I saw you, I knew I fell for you.
But I always knew that we were not meant to be.
A nagging voice in the back of my head, always telling me that.
Then another voice, that always give me a glimmer of hope.
The 1 and a half years apart, was the worst part of my life.
Everyday I'd think of you, and cry myself to sleep.
Not a day passed without me thinking of how much I fucking missed you.
Not a night passed without you in my dreams.
It took alot of courage for me to say what I wanted to.
Even though you've known it before.
Though the answer wasn't what I was hoping for,
I'm just happy to get a burden of my chest.
I'm glad that we could be back together.
Not as the way I wanted it to be.
Even though you rejected me, it's fine.
I'm just glad that we can still be friends.
But I always knew that we were not meant to be.
A nagging voice in the back of my head, always telling me that.
Then another voice, that always give me a glimmer of hope.
The 1 and a half years apart, was the worst part of my life.
Everyday I'd think of you, and cry myself to sleep.
Not a day passed without me thinking of how much I fucking missed you.
Not a night passed without you in my dreams.
It took alot of courage for me to say what I wanted to.
Even though you've known it before.
Though the answer wasn't what I was hoping for,
I'm just happy to get a burden of my chest.
I'm glad that we could be back together.
Not as the way I wanted it to be.
Even though you rejected me, it's fine.
I'm just glad that we can still be friends.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Legs to my chest, tears from my eyes.
I sat on my bed, staring at the sky.
Legs to my chest, tears from my eyes.
The memories are too painful, too bitter.
Yet I remember the times when everything was better.
The days in front of the fire.
The days when we faced each others ire.
The days in the meadows,
Basking in your shadow.
The lovely days in cafes,
Sipping on frothy lattes.
The days on the beach,
Playing with someone's bitch.
The days in the library,
Studying history and geometry.
The days at the park,
Where we pranced about like larks.
The nights at the silver screen,
Not once did we look at the screen.
The nights at the pubs,
And then we'd hit the clubs.
The nights in the alleyway,
Making out till May.
The night of June,
It was going to end soon.
Nothing I said made you change your mind.
Nothing I did, made you become mine.
You walked out the door,
Leaving me empty in my core.
You said you'd never leave me,
But I was too blind to see.
You used me and my feelings for you.
Just so you could show that I was a fool.
I sat on my bed, staring at the sky.
Legs to my chest, tears from my eyes.
I opened the window to meet the night.
I started to fly, and soon I saw the light.
Legs to my chest, tears from my eyes.
The memories are too painful, too bitter.
Yet I remember the times when everything was better.
The days in front of the fire.
The days when we faced each others ire.
The days in the meadows,
Basking in your shadow.
The lovely days in cafes,
Sipping on frothy lattes.
The days on the beach,
Playing with someone's bitch.
The days in the library,
Studying history and geometry.
The days at the park,
Where we pranced about like larks.
The nights at the silver screen,
Not once did we look at the screen.
The nights at the pubs,
And then we'd hit the clubs.
The nights in the alleyway,
Making out till May.
The night of June,
It was going to end soon.
Nothing I said made you change your mind.
Nothing I did, made you become mine.
You walked out the door,
Leaving me empty in my core.
You said you'd never leave me,
But I was too blind to see.
You used me and my feelings for you.
Just so you could show that I was a fool.
I sat on my bed, staring at the sky.
Legs to my chest, tears from my eyes.
I opened the window to meet the night.
I started to fly, and soon I saw the light.
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