Woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morn... Feeling shitty right now...

I've felt kinda restless and tired since Sunday... I hope it passes soon...

Let the weight of Your glory fall.

Spirit of the sovreign Lord, come and make Your presence known.
Reveal the glory of the living God.

Let the weight of Your glory cover us.
Let the life of Your river flow.
Let the truth of Your knigdom reign in us.
Let the weight of Your glory, Let the weight of Your glory fall.

Coming in from SP!!!

Coming in from SP!!!, So far the week has been good, seeds are definitely being sown here. O Lord, ignite in me the fire, the urgency for the lost.

School's been fine so far, and I've finally got my new notebook, and that's where I;m typing this blog entry from. Learned quite a few things, that are definitely useful in my engineering course. looking forward to many more new things, in school, in my life, and in the spirit.

Nothing will seperate me from the love of Christ!!!

Beauty unfolds,
Joy overflows.
Your grace begins,
This treasure within.

(7/4/2009)

Would I be left? On the day when the trumpet sounds, and all the saints of God get whisked away to His kingdom, would I be left? Would I be left on earth, alone with the rest of the world?

To sum it up, I think I've died my second death.

We've fallen too far, too far to be reconciled... While I still long for, I know that it is impossible...
To be redeemed from my second death seems inconceivable, cause that'll only mean I'll die a third death, if there is even such a thing...

(1/4/2009)

So it seems that my path is denied. A year will pass, a chapter that will no doubt be as dull as the pages of dusty old tomes in delapidated, antiquated buildings...



Life presents itself with situations everyday. Good ones, okay ones and bad ones. It is in His infinite wisdom that we have such problems, to strengthen, to mould and ultimately to be worthy of the crown that has been given each of us.



In this month of April, I come ever closer to approaching 17... A number that comes after 16. A supposed sweet 16... While last year had it's ups, it also has it's downs. The past catches up with the present and carries om into the future.


It stops when I say, goes on when I allow. It's a friendship of convenience. Uses me when it needs me. Uses it when I need it. Its in my thrall, and I in its.


We shall see how long this journey goes. But whatever it is... I don't know what to say, or think... My actions and thoughts require to be dictated...


Like a machine...

I can boast to many works done out of insecurity,
And credit many conversations to my immaturity.
While I'm misunderstood You are understanding me.
And showing me how grace is enough.

For everything that I've done right, seems like a thousand I've done wrong.
And I keep on losing count of all the times my flesh has won.
And when the light of Christ that's in me is overshadowed by the fall.
You are showing me how grace is enough.

When I feel unworthy,
So undeserving.

Still I can come, just as I am.
For I find Your love, is free of condition.
So I will run, to Your wide open arms,
Where I am accepted,
Where I am forgiven.
Grace is enough for me,
Your grace is enough for me.

I've been quick at passing judgement, when I'm worthy of conviction.
And at times I've measured virtue, only based on my relegion.
But theology it seems, is not the thing that's saving me
And showing me a grace that's enough.


T'would be nice for it to be true in my life.


But no matter how hard I try, I still seem trapped.
Attempts to climb up the sides have been futile.
All I've succeeded in doing is dig a deeper hole.
I'm trapped in the fowler's snare.

A moment's respite is all I ask.
Yet it seems denied to me.
Why should it be?
I don't know why.

If I had not known of God or Jesus, would I go to heaven or hell if I die?

March is coming to an end already. And yet from another perspective, it could be the start of a new journey. Hopefully the gale will cease. The seas calm and be suitable for sailing.

Emerge Elijah!

It's been exactly 20 days since my last post. It is a testament to how boring it is not to study.

Ayron Elijah Sim is a new creature in Christ Jesus. Humbly I submit my life to God. The Saviour of my soul. King of all my days. The grace of God is sufficient for me, all the days of my life. By His goodness and mercy I am still alive today.

The old Ayron has passed away.
Emerge Ayron Elijah Sim, follower of the most high King of heaven.
Lover of God.

Thanks to Cynthia and her mum for their hospitality!

Appeal failed

Things are not moving to plan... I've reconsidered about going to NS if I can't get into a poly, so I'll seek other alternatives now. Looks like I should retake my 'O' Levels again in attempts to get a better score. I'm down right now and alot of things are going through my mind now.

But hey, at least I have permission from my parents to be water baptized.
It's time.

My Father said, "Trust Me."
And so I have...

(4/2/2009)

I'll know the appeal results next monday... From one path, I now have 3.

1)If the appeal fails, hunt down the teacher and personally appeal. (Mom's idea...)

2)Retake my GCE 'O' Levels for maths.

3)Go and serve in NS.

Whichever is not in Thy will, I pray thee to shut the door.